War of Prey

30) The Fuel of Stupidity

"His biggest mistake is that he doesn't regret it."

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Oh save me from this tragedy, oh save me from this agony

It might be myself, but I still need you, I may hate but I still need love too

I'm only human, living in an illusion

Praying to come out high, praying to come out alive

Hoping I don't chase them away, choice between life and death, day by day

Hoping that they'll see, stay, and accept me

For who I am

In my head, it's a traffic jam, I talk a little too much

I won't say hi, don't touch

I act all crazy, like I'm high and hazy

I'll be down or I'm up

There's no in-between, no relief from this blowup

If looks could kill, I'd be dead 15 hundred times

I'm not silent, I'm not sober oftentimes

Say what you want, but you don't know me

I'm down on one knee

Oh I'm a wreck, oh I'm a mess, so hyped up can't even process

Oh I'm a pain, oh I'm a loser

A wildcard, a stone-cold bruiser.

I'm sorry I can't control

It's this demon inside my soul

And it's begging for me to let it go

But I'm already so alone

Hope no one else leaves, me alone tonight

Oh, I can't be alone tonight

Don't leave me alone... tonight

I'm crazy, I'm lazy, I've got a messed-up head

I can't be tamed, no no, I'm crying in bed

And you could ask me why, but I couldn't tell you, if I wanted to

You could ask me, and I'd say I have no clue

But I really wanna tell you oh oh

I'm dying inside but it's okay, every year alone on my birthday

They don't care but I'm just fine, I'm praying but I won't make it to the finish line

Oh I'm a mess, oh I'm a psychopath, I'm so done, won't see the aftermath

Oh I'm a wreck, oh I'm a lunatic, so just lock me away cause I'm so sick

I'm sorry I can't control, it's this demon inside my soul

And it's begging for me to let it go, but I'm already so alone

Hope no one else leaves, me alone tonight

Oh I can't be alone tonight

Don't leave me alone....tonight

I'm through trying to fight