Meant For You

James 2.6

"I just separated with my friends are you free?" Another text from him. I called Kevin and apologize. It turns out he waited for me for hours. I said I'll buy him a winter melon milk tea as an apology but he wasn't in the mood. His voice sounded dead. I felt guilty. He said he'll just sleep and hang up. I went back to the mall and bought his thigh part friend chicken in his favorite fast food. I also bought a winter melon milk tea and my dinner. I took a taxi and when I came to our dormitory I headed to Kevin's room. The moment I knocked he immediately opened. Something seemed off. He wasn't smiling and he was about to shut the door. I put my foot forward to stop the door.

"Hey I'm sorry." I said but there was no response. He tried to push me away to close the door but I didn't move. There! I was right, something is wrong. He's drunk.

"Kevin are you drunk?" I asked in a worried voice. He's drunk why did I have to ask.

"I'm not. Now leave me alone." He replied.

"I won't go anywhere until you talk to me." I insisted until he gave up.

"Suit yourself." He replied. I was kinda scared of this Kevin. His gleaming bright personality can't be traced anywhere. It's as if he's a totally different person. I came in his room and saw bottles of beer.

"Kevin I'm sorry." I said.

"Yes of course you are." He replied.

"I bought food for us." I tried to pacify him.

"What do you want exactly?" He asked with a dead face. This is different from the animated Kevin that I know.

"I just want to speak." I said.

"You want to speak yet just this morning you acted like I don't exist. I called you for so many times and texted you but what did I get?" He repliex this time with a little force.

"I was busy. I was with my friend." I tried to calm him down.

"Yes I know I saw you ignore my call. I was in SM too. Baguio is a small place. If you don't  want to see me you should move into a bigger city." He said and a little louder. I was caught off guard. I didn't know what to say. In fact there is no word that can make him feel better. This is entirely my fault and I don't know what to do.

"I'm sorry." The only word I can utter as I stand there frozen.

"Yes, yes you are." He said and fell down. I dropped the food and drink then rushed to Kevin who was too drunk and passed out. I carried him and put him into his bed. I cleaned the drinks that spilled on the floor. I am so guilty by how I'm treating Kevin. It's unfair for him but what am I supposed to do? I cleaned Kevin's room. I got rid of the beer bottles and left the food I bought for him then went back to my room. There I laid and thought about everything. With Kevin on my mind I slip into slumber. I woke up a bit late and checked up on Kevin but there was no answer. I tried to call him but he wouldn't pick up. Is this how he felt when I ignore him. I went down and bumped into him.

"James." He greeted. He's back to his usual smiling self.

"Kevin I'm sorry about yesterday." I said.

"What are you talking about? Did I say something last night?" He said.

"You can't remember?" I asked

"Well you came and I passed out right?" He replied. I didn't want to say anything so I just changed the subject. I asked if he has eaten yet. Gladly, he hasn't and so we ate breakfast together. After, we went back to my room where we would sing then we would have lunch then by noon we would hang out in his room to read comics. Then we had our dinner at night and hang out in his room before sleeping in each respective rooms. This has been our routine for a while until classes started. For a moment it felt okay but things don't always go the way we plan or the way we want it to be.