Save Me

FORTYFIVE

I picked up the steaming mug of coffee that was on the kitchen island. Ria had gone for a shower before we head to the packhouse.  I'm a little nervous to see Rhydian since I can't control whatever is happening down there. I took my phone out of my pocket and pulled up the internet. I guess some research wouldn't hurt. 

Why do I tingle down there about a man?

That should give me some sort of answer. I scrolled through the links, I had no idea what to click on. I clicked on a random link and my eyes went wide. Goddess, all this is new. 

'We'll be going into heat soon. We're due for it.' Aurora warned.  I groaned and dropped my head down, resting it on the kitchen island. She-wolves go through heat twice a year. I first went through heat at 16, it wasn't as painful as I expected, I mean it hurts, but compared to some she-wolves mine is very mild. I was told that it could have been because of my wolf.

The only time a she-wolf can get pregnant is through heat, otherwise, they would be thousands of pups running around. I do know wolves are more sexual than humans, we learned a little at school about marking and mating. The school I went to was a human school, so when they did sex education, we were pulled out of class and taught by a werewolf about it. But they never gave much information. They said our mates would let us know and talk us through everything.

Unmated she-wolves have a painful heat whereas mated she-wolves don't. An unmated wolf and a mated wolf can't have sex, if they try it's excruciating for the unmated wolf... it can result in infertility or worse, death.

Growing up with just my dad, I had a very sheltered life when it came to the opposite sex. I wish I knew all this information before and then maybe Noah wouldn't have happened. 

'But Rhydian is around now so who knows how strong this heat will be.' Aurora just had to make matters worse. I groaned and slammed my phone down on the counter. 

"Woah, even coffee didn't help your mood. What's got your panties in a twist?" Ria asked as she strolled into the kitchen with a towel wrapped around her head. She pulled the towel, freeing her pin-straight blonde hair. I was always jealous of her hair, I'd love straight hair but mine doesn't last more than an hour being straight... curly hair problems!

"Nothing." I lied. I'm too embarrassed to ask. How would I even start-up that conversation? "I know something is wrong. Come on, we have 20 minutes until they serve breakfast, talk to me." She said as she flopped down on a stool opposite me.

"Um, I don't know how to say it," I whispered, feeling my face heat up. "By the look on your face, I think I know." She grinned. "You're having feelings, aren't you?" She chuckled.

I blushed and hid my face in my hands, "I don't know how to control it." I muttered. She giggled, moving my hands from my face. "Girl, it's normal especially now you've found your mate." She said, "Your hormones are heightened. It's to speed up the process of mating." She explained.

My mouth dropped open and I sat there opening and closing it like a fish. "So, you're telling me I have to deal with this tingling and aching feeling until we mate?" I gasped. She threw her head back laughing, "I promise it's normal for werewolves. Goddess, you really have no clue do you?" She asked.

I frowned at her as my bottom lip started quivering. "Shit, Amaris. I'm sorry, I forget sometimes that you were living a human life." She quickly apologises. "Didn't you talk about any of this with any of your friends back in Canada?" She asked, rubbing the back of her neck. "No, every time they mentioned anything, I blocked it out," I explained. "Anything to do with sex triggers the memory of Noah," I whispered.

She nodded her head and came and stood next to me. "Listen, what you are feeling right now is normal and I hate to say this but it's only going to get worse and especially when you come into heat." She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me. "I'm letting Rhydian know today about Noah and then we'll see where we go from there," I muttered, resting my head on her shoulder.

"Sounds like a plan." She replied, smoothing my hair down. "Right come on, I'm starving and I miss my mate." Ria chuckled. I nodded and stood up. As we made our way to the packhouse I was prepping myself.

Just think of anything but Rhydian... Just get through this breakfast without thinking of how unbelievably sexy he is. Ok... that doesn't work. I just won't go near him, I'll sit on the other side of the dining room. That's a good plan!

Ria opened the door to the packhouse and I went in after her. "Good morning, Alpha." A young woman, who I recognised as one of the cooks, greeted me. "Please, call me Amaris." I smiled at her. She nodded and turned her head slightly to a pup who was pulling on her skirt. "What's up, Cory?" She asked, looking down at the little pup.

"Can I go have my breakfast now, please mum?" He sweetly asked. She sighed quietly and shook her head, "We've spoken about this Cory. You need to wait for dad to get back so he can go with you." She replied. He bowed his head sadly and nodded. I tapped her on the shoulder, she spun around and smiled at me. "He can join me if he wants?" I offered. She looked taken aback, "No, Alpha, it's ok. He'll be fine waiting." I smiled at her and shook my head, "Honestly, it's no bother." I answered again. "Are you sure?" She asked, glancing between us both.

I shook my head again and bent down in front of the pup. "Hi, my name's Amaris. What's yours?" I smiled. "Cory." He whispered and smiled back. "Well, Cory, would you like to come and have breakfast with me?" I asked, holding my hand out. He looked up at his mum and give her a big smile. "Of course, that's fine. But make sure you stay with Al-" I glanced up at her and she quickly coughed before looking back at Cory, "Make sure you stay with Amaris." She said in a stern voice. 

Cory's face lit up and he beamed at me. I stood up as Cory put his tiny hand in mine. "I'll be good, I promise." He promised his mum before we skipped hand in hand towards the dining hall. "Are you really our Alpha?" He questioned. I chuckled and stopped outside the dining-room door. "No, I'm just Amaris." I smiled. 

"So, you've got a pup as well." I twisted my head to the side and Selena stood in the doorway with her arms crossed over her chest. "I wonder how your mate will feel knowing you're a fucking whore who opened her legs for someone else."

Count to 5.

Breathe... in and out.