I grew to love you
More deeply than I have ever loved
Another person
And that is why
The loss of you
Is deeper and longer lasting
Than the loss I have felt
Upon losing
Any other person
However
I love myself
And my convictions
More than I love you
I love my church
And my service
I love my convictions
And my God
I love my independence
And my opportunities
Just ever so slightly
More than I loved you
And that is why
Despite this feeling
Of crippling loss
And debilitating remorse
I still cannot
And never will
Find it within myself
To ask for you back
I love you
So dearly
But if I have to chose
Between loving you
And loving my convictions
I cannot choose you.
I wish I could choose both
I wish I could be myself
And my own person
And we could be friends
But
You seem to have made that choice for me
As you made the choice
Of ending us
For me
I do not blame you for that
I'm grateful
For your courage
To choose the choice
I could not bear to make
I do not think you were wrong in that
Despite the breaking of my heart
I still believe
You made the right decision
...I just wish
The decision
Could have left us
As friends
And not as estranged lovers
Who hurt to see
12/12/22
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