Jake Webber X Johnnie Guilbert Smut And Fluff

Mind(Angst)

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Johnnies pov:

It was December 24th

A day before Jake's favorite day.

Christmas!

He always loved Christmas.

I'm glad I get to spend it with him.

I never usually was excited for it.

I've never really liked it or minded it that much but when it was with him it was amazing.

I mean, who wouldn't want to spend a holiday with your best friend, even if you don't necessarily follow and or believe the religion it applies to.

I was decorating the tree.

I put up the last ornament.

It was a blank red one, it had our names writen onto it in sharpie.

'Jake & Johnnie 2022'
From out first Christmas together.

It's been 2 years since then.

"Jake is gonna love this" I say to myself smiling slightly.

I go to the Hall closet and take out this photo album book.

I just wanted to look back at it.

I take it and sit on the couch.

I open it, smiling at the photos.

A bunch of them from Tara's parties.

A few of just me and Jake at home.

It was something I often loved looking back at.

Especially since it won't happen again.

I turn to the next page seeing Jake's obituary.

I pick it up and tear up a little.

"I think of you all the time now that your gone" I say looking at it carefully.

Admiring his smile on the front cover.

"You would love this" I say still looking at his picture.

I stand up and set the photo album on the couch but still holding the obituary.

"Jake" I say his name.

Smiling, it still hurts that he's gone.

But I've found peace with-in this holiday.

Everytime it comes around it makes me feel closer to Jake.

Maybe not physically but in my soul I can feel him.

He's here.

Mentally and spiritually.

"Merry Christmas, Jake" I say.
I felt my heart ache saying that.

I take the obituary to the tree and set it next to our ornament, propping it up on a branch.

"I got you something" I smile half heartedly.

Slightly upset he can't physically have it.

I reach under the tree and pull out the wrapped gift.

"I'll open it for you obviously" I plop down on the floor ripping into the gift, pulling off the wrapping paper.

"Ehm" I say unsure if Jake is even listening to my words.

I open the box and pull out a stuffed animal dog, a can of root beer and some chocolate.

"I-i.... Uhm.. I know you can't physically have it.. But um.. Uhm... I'm sorry" I stutter out.

A tear falling from my eye.

"I'm so sorry" I say feeling guilty for some reason.

I felt sad, upset I wasn't with Jake physically and now I'm just alone.

"Jake. if you are some how here or... Or just listening to me... I miss you.... A-... A lot... Uhm... I really m-miss you... And... Uhm... It breaks my heart still living on for you... Uhm... I'm sorry..." I say wiping away tears from my eyes.

"Life will never be the same without you" I say looking up at the Christmas tree.

I admired the ornament with our names on it.

The string lights on the tree flickered a pink color then returning back to white.

"Ha-... Fuckin hell...." I say in disbelief of what just happened.

"I love you Jake" I say tearing up and smiling.

"I hope that was you saying hi" I say nervously, smiling and crying.

587 words

Idk if I made you cry
But I cried while writing this

Wow.
yeah ha- uhm, I'm still crying lmao

Wooooh okay

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