Anidita: A sweet journey towards a new dawn

Chapter 13: The long unspoken pain

Anirudh took a gulp. Kaka was staring straight at him like an angry tiger. Binoy was more fierce but didn't forget to adjust his specs. Anirudh couldn't look at tem for long. He tried to be strong but he was filled with fright from inside. He wanted to tell something but that words couldn't come out of his mouth.

Kaka advanced slowly towards him. Sumati ma holds Bondita's shoulder. Bondita took a gulp. She once looked at kaka and then at Anirudh. Sumati ma was frightened too.

Kaka grasps Anirudh's hand tightly "Humain tumse kuch baat karni hain" told Kaka in a low but deep voice pressing his teeth.

"Kaka woh main" Anirudh wanted to defend himself but he couldn't

"Chalooo" Kaka literally dragged him out of the room along the corridor. Binoy adjusted his specs and followed leveaing shocked Sumati and Bondita in the room.

Kaka drags Anirudh to a room and throws him on the sofa there..
Binoy enters and shuts the door..

Anirudh stands up slowly with his head stooped down he tried to look at his kaka and baba's expressions

"Yeh tumne keya kiya Anirudh??.. ek khun ke sajis main tumnain aise madad ki?!.. dimag kharab ho geya tha tumhara.. parivar ka maan samman ke bare main nehi socha??" Asked kaka..

Anirudh didn't reply..

Binoy came and stood infront of Anirudh and looked straight at him. In a blink of time Binoy put a tight slap on Anirudh's face.

"Binoy!!!!!!" Kaka was shocked.. "itne bare bete per hath utha diya tumne.."

"Da!... baccha nehi hain Anirudh koi.. bara hua hain sochne ki shamta hain uski... ekbar apne parivar ke man samman ke bare me na socha... agar yeh baat sabko pata chal jaiga to khud to fasega hi sath sath mera reputation business sab dubega.."..

Anirudh looked up at him... " maine jo kiya woh desh ki azadi ki larai ka chota sa hissa tha baas..aapko to sirf apki izzat aur reputation ki pari rehti hain.. uske liye aap woh engrez o ki gulami karne ko bhi raji ho..." said Anirudh slowly..

"Videsh bheja tha Barristeri padhne ke liye.. jaise tumhe ek sthan de saku... eh sikh ke aye ho bidesh se.. batameezz.." Binoy was furious. On a blink of time he took the stick from Kaka's hand and started beating Anirudh. It seemed as if Anirudh was enduring the blows. Kaka tried to stop him "Binoy!!! Rukooo.. chot lag jaigi useee.."
"Chot lagne do Da... bohat seh liya iski fitoor aur batamizi.. aur nehi.."
Binoy again waved the stick to beat Anirudh but Anirudh hold the stick and looked straight at his eyes.

"Ha main batamiz hu... ha main fitoor grasth pagal hu.. aapko sirf apni pari hain.. apni  reputation apni business ki pari hain... bidesh bheja toh keya mahan kaam kar liya apne.. woh bhi to apne reputation ke liye kiya na.. mere bare main kab socha aapne.. " Anirudh's eye became teary.." Ma ke jane ke baat hi bidesh bhej diya... koi abhibabak nehi tha waha mere upar.. sirf padai hi ki koi aur anubhab nehi tyar hua mujh main.. jaan hi nehi paya mere apne desh aur samaj ke hatikat ko... isliye har baar haar bar galitiya karta raha aur bhugatna para Bondita ko... main khud hi thick se saab jaan nehi paya to Bondita ko keya sikhaunga main..."

Kaka somewhat felt Anirudh's pain... but "Anirudh baba hain woh tumhare... izzat se baat karo.."

Binoy stops him.. " rehne dijiye da.. ise bolke aur kuch faida nehi... sirf bhashan dena sikha hain ismain.... suno Anirudh tum kal se mere sath wine factory pe jaoge... certificate to pehle hi khoke baithe ho.. agar yeh Manorama ka sach samne ay geya to aur musibat hogi... air main tumhain aur gondogol karne nehi dunga.. tum mere sath factory pe jaoge kal se..."

"Nehi main nehi jaunga... main barrister hu main barristery karunga... factory main keu jaon main.. wo bhi wine factory!!. .."

"Maine jo kaha woh karoge tum.. samjhe.. baap hu main tumhara.. itna adhikar hain tumpe mera.."

"Main apka sone ka ghari nehi jo aap mujpe adkhikar pesh kare... mera khud ka bhi ek zindegi hain.. yeh sayed aap bhul rahe ho.. bachpan se jo payar mamta dene tha woh to diya nehi.. adhikar dikhane ke samai baap ka parichay de rahe hoo..."

"Anirudh..." shouted kaka..

"Maine certificate ka duplicate ke liye bohat pehli hi apply kar diya tha... mujhe nehi rehna aap logo ki daulat pe aap logo ke naam pe.. main apna naam khud banauga main dulat khut kamaunga... aur us naam ke sahare Bondita ko apne pyar o par khara karunga.. ush dalut ke sahare use padhaunga ... nehi banna mujhe aur Bondita ko aap per bhoj.. nehi lena humain ish parivar wala izzat ka bhoj... main khud azad hona chahata hu aur Bondita ko azad karna chahata hu...."

"Anirudh yeh tu keya keh raha hain..." kaka hold Anirudh's shoulders "yeh sab to tere liye hi hain na..."

"Nehi chahiye mujhe.." Anirudh shook off his hands

Anirudh opened the door and saw Somnath and Batuk standing there. Anirudh's hair and dress was messy clearly depicting he was beaten. Anirudh moved his face and went towards his room.

Batuk ran to Bondita
"Boudi boudi dada ko baba ne khub mara..."

Bondita and Sumati were shocked

Anirudh went to his room and shut the door behind him. He opened the drawer and took out a picture and hugged it...
"Ma wapas ay jao na maa... mujhe aapki zarurat hain maaa.. wapas ay jao na.. firse mujhe gale se lagao na maaaaaa......."

Anirudh cried his heart out.... and the doll sitting on the table remained as the only witness to the long unspoken pain..

It seemed that a drop of tear appeared on its eyes too