Lily pov
I woke up at noon after hours of nightmares. I wasn't so tired anymore so I decided not to try sleeping any more. It would only bring more nightmares.
I took a quick shower and wore an oversised shirt. Then I walked downstairs slowly. Mom was already gone and I felt that this was the best at the time. I didn't really want to put on a fake smile and tell mom how well the trip went.
I made myself two sandwiches for breakfast and ate them while lazily sitting on the couch. I didn't feel like doing anything and my soulmark was still hurting a bit. It wasn't as unbearable as it was before buti it still hurt.
When I finished my food I decided to make myself some hot chocolate. It wasn't cold, it wasn't christmas or anything, but who cares. I can drink hot chocolate whenever I want. Just like eating ice cream, even though... it makes me fat and even uglier than I am now...
Whatever! I stood up and made my way to the kitchen. I made myself a big cup of hot chocolate and went back to the couch to drink it and relax.
It really helped and I felt a lot better, my body warmed up and with it my heart did too and stopped aching and calling for my soulmate. I put on a playlist of calming music, it didn't see a lot of kpop songs in it, when I scrolled through the list quickly but that didn't bother me. I love music, almost all kinds of music so it doesn't really matter to me which one I'm listening to.
I closed my eyes while sipping my drink and just enjoyed the calmness. I hadn't felt like this for quite a long time, no fear, no doubts, no insecurities, nothing, just me in the moment, enjoying. Alone. It felt so good to just be alone and listen to my own thoughts and music.
I was just chilling for a few hours. Until...
Bogo shipda
Ireoke malhanikka deo
Bogo shipda
Neohi sajineul bogo isseodo
Bogo shipda
Neomu yasokhan shigan
Naneun uriga mibda
Ijen eolgul han beon boneun geotto
Himdeureojin uriga
I froze. I recognized the song from the first two words as I hadn't been paying attention and didn't notice the familiar intro. I started taking deep breaths, as I felt that the air just wouldn't come in. It was as if something pushed down on my lungs and didn't let any air in.
Yeogin ontong gyeoul ppuniya
Palworedo gyeouri wa
Maeumeun shiganeul dallyeogane
Hollo nameun seolgukyeolcha
Ni son jabgo
Jigu bandaepyeonkkaji ga
Gyeoureul kkeutnaegopa
Geuriumdeuri
Eolmana nuncheoreom naeryeoya
Geu bomnari olkka
Friend
Tears started falling down my eyes as I thought of not seeing Cho again, ever. I really wanted to be near her but I just couldn't.
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SOULMATES but they are already perfect without me
FanfictionIn a world where everyone has a soulmate, soulmate groups are nothing extraordinary. Everyone gets a soulmark at the age of ten to prepare for the awaiting life with soulmates and give them time to find them. When Lily found out that she is part of...