The Deal

23. Intimate

Isabella Rose

I wake up with a headache. I rub my forehead trying to take the pain away.

I feel arms wrapped around me, I turn around to find a man in my bed. "What the fuck are you doing I'm my bed" I yell getting out of it. Valentino opens his eyes.
I look down. I've changed clothes. When did I do that. I had a dress on. Oh my god don't tell me we....

"Please tell me we didn't do anything last night" I say hoping we did not have sex that I can't even remember.

He laughs covering his eyes. "Did what exactly?" He asks knowing exactly what I mean.

"We didn't... have... sex right?!" I ask terrified. How could I become so drunk to forget when we even came home.

"Relax love we did nothing" he says as I let out a relieved breath.

"You just begged me to stay" he says as my eyes widen. I would never say something like that. Or would I. Maybe I do want him to stay but I would never admit it to let him win.

"I was drunk, I don't know what I'm saying" I say.

"Drunk words are sober thoughts love" he says smiling sleepy.

Suddenly I remember what I heard last night.
He told his friends I was nobody. That I meant nothing to him. Fuck him honestly. I'm not going to be fooled.
If that is how he feels I will never let myself fall for him.

"So can you maybe go" I say stretching the fabric of the t-shirt on me, so that it covers me.

"Didn't say that last night" he teases.

"Get out asshole" I say getting mad at myself for the stupid things I've said and embarrassed myself.

He laughs a little before getting up. He walks towards me and I stumble backwards until I hit the wall. He hovers over me looking me deep in the eyes.

Pull yourself together Isabella.

"I heard what you said to your friends last night" I say tilting my head to the side so that he won't see that it actually hurt me.
"Was that why you were so upset?" He asks trying to understand.

"Don't think too highly of yourself" I say but knowing he was the reason I cried last night.

He doesn't answer. He just leaves the room. I get so frustrated with him. Not even an apology. Has he ever in his life apologized for hurting someone, I don't think so. Ugh why am I so bothered by this. I should not care.

***

I walk downstairs to find Matteo and Valentino in the kitchen. Great.

"Good morning Matteo" I say making sure Valentino knows I'm mad at him.

"Morning bells" he says preparing a sandwich for himself.
I go open the refrigerator and take out some apple juice.

"Aren't you going to eat breakfast" Valentino asks concerned. "Here take mine" he adds handing me his untouched food.

"Matteo please tell your brother to not talk to me anymore" I say walking out the room with my juice.

As I leave I can hear Matteo say, "what did you do again" sounding so disappointed in his brother.

***

Time passes and it's now night. I haven't left my room for hours. I try to avoid seeing Valentino. 'I'm mad at him' I keep repeating in my head.

I peak my head out the door and when nobody is there I walk out. At the same time I'm walking through the hallway another door opens. Ugh. Shit.

Valentino walks towards me and I roll my eyes to show him that I'm not in the mood for talking.
"When are you going to stop ignoring me?" He asks standing in front of me. I cross my arms not answering.

He tries to say something but I push past him, bumping my shoulder on him.
But before i can reach the stairs he gently grabs my hand. Making me turn back around.
We stand much closer now.
His breathing is heavy.
"Talk to me amore, please" he says. Please.

I look up at him. Trying to understand where this is going.
Why does he need me to talk to him if I mean nothing to him, like he had said.

"I'm nothing to you remember?" I say but not really as a question.
He lets go of my hand. He throws his hands behind his head.
"God Bella I didn't...I mean you have never been nothing to me, you're much more" he says. What is he trying to say. I wait for him to finish.

"I never meant what I said, and it was stupid of me. Im trying to protect you, believe me. I'm..."

Is he trying to apologize.

He finds it hard to say he's sorry. He's never been sorry for anything in his life before. I smile a little knowing he is trying to apologize.

"It's fine" I say understanding him. I do forgive him this time. I get that he has to scare people on a daily basis, to not have people go after him. If he had told the guys he care for me they could've hurt me, to get to him.

He lets out a relieved breath as he hugs me. Holding me tight. His heart is beating faster than usual.

"Want to watch a movie?" I ask trying to make things normal again, he nods.
"Only if I can pick" he says leading the way to his room. He has a tv in there.

"Absolutely not I'm picking" I say insisting.

He lets me choose the movie. I get very comfortable in his bed. I'm under the sheets close to Valentino.

Halfway through the movie his hand in my hair. He is gently playing with a pice of my hair. Twisting it.
I smile without him noticing.
I like the feeling of his touch.

***

I wake up in Valentinos bed. He is beside me. My arm is around his body. When did I do that. I remove my arm slowly.
But this man is noticing my every move, so he wakes up. His sleepy eyes go to me.
"Sorry, I don't know when we fell asleep, I'll go to my bed" I say pulling away from him. But before I get a chance to do so he grabs my hand and pulls me back down. My back is on his chest. His arms go around my waist.

"Stay with me amore" he whispers. Holy shit. I can't breathe. I feel his breath on my neck. His body is pressed against mine.

"This is not a good idea" I mumble knowing that I want to do every possible thing with him right now.

I can't see it but I just know he has a smirk on his face. His hand goes to my stomach slowly tracing down. It stops at the hem of my underwear.
"Why is that love?" he says sending shivers down my spine. Love.

I breathe heavily, it feels like my heart is going to burst out.

"Because...if you start I don't think I would want you to stop" I admit.

"Do you want me to stop?" he asks pulling at my underwear. I shake my head so fast, wanting him to continue.
"No.." I moan out.

He is like fire and my skin burns with the heat.
His fingers slides down my panties.
His two fingers find my clit and move in circular motions. Making me gasp.
I try to keep quiet but god that feels good.

I've never had my body react this way.
I have never in my life enjoyed this before.
Valentinos fingers slips inside of me. Making me moan. He knows what he's doing to me.
"You're so fucking wet love" he says as he continues to push his fingers in and out of me.
I arch my back and open my legs so that he can move easily.
"Fuck Val...I'm almost there" I moan.
He moves faster making me go insane.
His other hand goes to my neck, tilting my head slightly up. He rests it gently there. His mouth close to my ear.

"Just like that, cum for me amore" he whispers in my ear and I do. I'm out of breath. He slowly pulls his fingers out and lets me enjoy the moment.
This is the first time I have liked the feeling of something so intimate.
It did not feel forced like it always has.
It was like my body wanted him.
I turn around to face him. His eyes are already on mine.
I can't stop but smile. My cheeks has turned bright pink.

"Next time... just ask me and I will do it with pleasure" he says laughing at his own joke. "Shut up" I say still not over what we just did.

We lay in bed just looking at each other for a while. Trying to understand this thing we have between us.