Sorry for really late update...I was having less time as well as no idea. But finally I got some requests and I'm trying my best....
Next story is Misa x male reader
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L x suicidal ! Reader
Reader's POV~~~
I was born to be dead. My present was shattered into millions of pieces due to reflection of my past. The happiness never chose me and I never gave up. I kept trusting myself, I kept opposing the world, I kept trying and I kept living. At that moment, I was just regrating all of my courageous actions...I should be dead by now.
I put a hand on the strong tied rope. I pulled it to make sure it's ready to bear my weight.
At that last moment of my life, I could feel my whole life showing in front of my eyes. I had no reason to deny and moreover, it's the last thing so don't mind at all. The first thing came was the beginning of my bad days. After my father's death, my mom remarried. That person was so selfish that he threw a 5 years old girl out of the house. I was roaming around and wandering. Getting lunch from garbeg was just common and daily routine for me. I started living as a stray dog. Everyday, every minute, every moment was full of pain and no matter how loud I cried, the people in this world had become so deaf to hear it, so numb to feel it.
I put a chair under that hanging rope. I meagured the height which looked perfect. I think that's the best choice I've ever made.
At the age of 10, I was again finding food from dustbins when someone came and held my hand. I couldn't understand a thing. First, I was happy that someone is taking me to their home. But wait, some people live in hell. He took me to a small room. There was dark surrounding when I felt like something is wrong. That person threw me in that room. My face hit that rock hard floor. I tried to get up. I turned my face to look at him. It was dark yet I could figure out what he is up to. He put his hand in his back pocket and fount a sharp knife. He had an unusual evil smirk on his face as I couldn't stop myself from staring at him. My eyes widened as he got closer to me and said "Don't worry little girl, it will only hurt for a while." He held me from one hand. I was trying my best yet I couldn't escape when he swang his knife.....
Drip drop.....
And it seemed like the bleeding is never going to stop....
I looked at my right arm which was cut out that day. Those past memories had made me enough depressed that there were tears in my eyes. The worst one was yet to come.
At the age of 17, I had been given the worst gift from human kind. I was in my home made of boxes and paper when four or five guys came. They didn't have good intentions and even I could tell that. They got closer to me. I tried to escape but they hit me with something solid and made me unconcious.
When I opened my eyes, I was still recovering so I had no energy...I looked at my surrounding and found all those guys around me.
"Yare yare...she's such a beauty."
"We finally have someone to f*uck..."
"Good thing is that she can't even complain to her parents..." 😈😈😈
No...please....I put all of strength into begging to them but it was all in vein. And that day I lost my virginity. Not even that day, those guys used to come to my place every week and harressed me sexually....I was just being tired of all those shit of life and now I had decided to put an end on it. I went to river. I saw fished swimming there for the last time of my life. I climbed up the fance and closed me eyes. I said 'goodbye' to this world and jumped.
I opened my eyes slowly to realize that I'm still alive. I slowly got up as the door was opened. There was a young guy standing at the door. And at the first side, I fell for him.
Now, I had confessed to him and he was just silent. I could easily guess that he hates me. He was the last hope for my life but now I had no more reason to live. Last time I closed my eyes and remembered his face...'now I can die peacefully' I mumbled my last words and hanged myself. I was feeling it. Death was slowly coming towards me. After all who would love an orphan one armed girl ???
That rope was cut and I fell down. I opened my eyes just to see that guy. He had caught me in bridal style. I tried my best to hide my blush as well as tears. Why did he come to save me ? He then said "How many times did I tell you not to do that?" I could clearly see worry in his eyes and voice. "But..." "(Y/n), I really love you...." My eyes widened as I heard it. "I'm sorry I didn't know how to put it....but now I know." He leaned closer and kissed me passionately. It was my first kiss so I gladly kissed back. "I love you too L...." 😊
