Unexpected love

Where's Nathaniel.

For the past two days Nathaniel is now considered popular because he's the class clown and argues with teachers I've been hearing him have an outbursts outside my classroom,whenever that happens people would look at me. All I know when I'm in the same class he's so disruptive until the teacher has to give him an fidget toy to help distract him, which he happily accepts. He's been in isolation the whole past two days and goes home early so I haven't seen him on those days at all. Yesterday Nathaniel has been avoiding me I hope he's alright, to be honest I've stepped back respecting his boundaries.

Present day
I'm all alone again he brings the entertainment and actually makes me enjoy coming to school with his none stop talking, making me laugh and defending me whenever the girls push into me and giving me dirty looks whenever I walk with Nathaniel, especially Amelia whose in my design technology, history and maths. I've asked my teacher in design tech to move tables away from her but he never listened which was amazing.

It's a new week and still haven't seen him. I went up to his friend Andrew and Bailey.
"Andrew how are you"
"I'm speaking to you"
"Sorry I didn't see you there"
"You don't have to see me"!."I know I'm short but you can hear me idiot"."Where's Nathaniel".
"Ooooo someone's in love"
"I'm not"
"Andrew and Bailey say at the same time it's so obvious".
"Can I have my answer?"
"He's not coming back till Wednesday because he got suspended for his disruptive behaviour".
"can I have his phone number I'll love to speak to him to know he's ok".
"You see what I'm saying it's obvious Andrew says".
"Whatever can I have it" in an annoyed tone
Sure.

"Nathaniel's POV"
I'm used to this but I've never gotten the help with my mum, grandma and dad. Because they don't believe what I have and I can't help myself because they would need parent consent. When my Grandma picked me up I've gotten the silent treatment in the car, but when we got home grandma was not having it at all yelling saying,"you should stop this behaviour of yours I'm tired of it always something everyday happens Nathaniel DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE".
"No Ma,but you know schools has sent you letters and my parents that I need support in my behaviour but you guys never give a damn about it!".
"We don't believe you have these disorders it's you being dramatic, If you do this again I'll remove you from that school".
When grandma said the last part I stormed out of the room and slammed my bedroom door.Screaming into my pillow and crying till I fall asleep.

Throwback
Nathaniel again you are such a disgrace to this family only because you fought a boy because he was talking behind your back and you sent him to the hospital, why you keep on doing this to us dad says beating me with a belt while my mum watches in silence. Why Nathaniel why ANSWER ME RIGHT KNOW. I-I ca-ca-can't. Dad picks me up and throws me against the wall while he holds a grip to my top staring at me with his evil eyes If you miss behave again I'll kill you watch your behaviour.Then throws me on the floor laying down shivering with immense pain physically and mentally ,having a
mental breakdown.

I screamed and breathed uncontrollably waking up from that nightmare having yet another breakdown usually I struggle to fall back asleep. But today I thought about Stacy which brought me comfort thinking of scenarios like her cuddling me tightly saying nothing but sweet words at the same time running her hands through my hair while lay on her chest smoothing me to sleep which helped a lot.
I doubt that'll happen. I really want to be with her but I don't think that would happen because it's difficult to control my behaviour and I don't want to be around her when that happens that's why I've been avoiding her. She's afraid of me now and won't speak to me ever again.

Phone rings.