Unexpected love

Sleepover

2 weeks before
I've been to my therapist she was happy for me following her advice which has worked like,
Me writing down how I'm feeling or pouring my heart down on paper has helped a lot cause I doesn't bother my mind anymore. My therapist has recommended me some activities to do so I chose drawing since I could draw then colour it in. This has helped me tremendously because it distracted me of my thoughts.
I went to Stacy's house to convince her parents to like me again, also ma speaking to them. It was an success and now she can come to me during the half term holiday for a sleepover.
I did mock exams, I obviously one of the top in all of my class, just had to brag cause of everything I'm going through. I've been in my teachers good books since I wasn't in any trouble and got many rewards.

Trigger warning self harm!!!!!
I've been cutting my arm and chest with ma's blade since the time I wasn't talking to Stacy. I saw the blade on the counter, she's been asking me for it. Thank god she has another one. I've been feeling guilty and tired of the way I'm living in constant hatred of myself. I hate the way It felt nice having sex with my dad's girlfriend, but I hated doing it, so it made no sense, I hate that I can't control my anger, I hate how my dad treated me and I've been put through with it. (It doesn't bother me anymore) , I hate my grandma allows them both to come over, I hate Stacy is the one looking after me when I should, I want to be the best future husband to her. I hate Stacy has to worry always worry about me. I hate that my mother just left without me knowing dad treats me the same he did to my mother. I really miss her she was my comfort, she was my role model, she was so patient and tried to make me happy when she wasn't. I hate that I'm a softie. Each of these made me cut myself and more, tears streaming down my face, I have to tell Stacy before it gets worse and I might die, she's the only person I want to stay alive.

Present
'Knock knock'!!!
Stacy's POV: I entered in the house with excitement, when he immediately closed the door I jumped to him, he lifted me up then kissed. Nathaniel took my suit case in his room.
"You brought a lot of things for a week"
"You'll see what I have you might enjoy it". He said ok in a confused tone.
We finally watch our favourite series stranger things. I love that we didn't watch the episodes that have came out so we can now watch it throughout for a few hours. When it was done I played music on the tv.

I felt punches on my arm and making boxing noises.
" what are you doing"
"I'm bored"
I moved a bit so I can defined my self to block his punches.
"So your fighting me now huh".
I grabbed a pillow to hit him on the face so does he. Then we begin to play fight. We hit, kicked, he then eventually threw me to the couch and he was on top of me. "Ha I won",catching his breath. We were breathless.
"What are you staring at"
You lol, your so incredible.
Nathaniel leans in for a kiss, his lips were plump  and soft as our bodies touched, I could feel the sensation run through our body. He cupped his hands on my cheeks to deepen the kiss. Nothing else mattered, no worries, fears or the past. This is the moment I would remember forever. The kiss felt like an eternity.
"I love you", he said
"I love you to".
We cuddled with background music which matched the situation we were in(Justin Timberlake Until The End Of Time) with Beyoncé. Music at the top.
It was so perfect, it felt like a fairy tail movie.
"I need to go to the toilet", he said.
Nathaniel rushed. 10 minutes later he still isn't down here. I went to see if he was ok. As soon as I was close to the toilet I could hear a  faint cry and breath problems. NATHANIEL open the door please!!!!!!, I said repeatedly.

Isn't that not cute. Thank you for reading my story. Please vote I would really much appreciated it.