The Marriage Of A Bangladeshi Girl (completed)

Ch:26-Realisation

(Abrar's POV)

As the cold water ran through my body, I felt my body growing stiffer. My peace of mind and heart was completely lost. It was so strange, if I think about it, some days ago, I just wanted a girl badly, I wanted to touch her, I wanted to make her mine, and especially I wanted her in my bed. But now when I could do all these, I didn't want to. I wanted something different now. I wanted to feel her instead of just touching her, I wanted her to be mine instead of making her mine. I wanted her in my bed, not to just have her but to wrap my arms around her and sleep peacefully, consuming her. I wanted so much more. But she didn't want any of it. And why would she? She wanted someone else and most prolly she loves him too. There was no place of me in her life and the thought pierced like a knife in my chest.

After taking the long shower, my mind completely shifted to my work. I had carry on my investigation on the new company. Before making a deal, it was very important to know inside and out about a company, so that the deal can be carried out with more ease and you don't get into any trap. Thinking all these, I got dressed and the headed to my study. On my way I also told a servant, to get a coffee for me in the study.

Once I started, there was lot of things I got hold of, and it made more content and happier. I felt like I was drowning in the deep ocean, this gave me a feel of scuba diving. I realised at that instant, how much I loved my work.

Suddenly, as door of the study opened, I felt, all the grip of work that I was holding just detached from my hand. My mind completely shifted to somewhere else. My heart started to beat fast and I knew who was on the door. The room filled with chocolate scent and it made me crazier, like a hungry lion starving for many days and then he finally found his prey. She had an amazing impact on me and the thought brought me back to reality. What was I thinking? Have I got nuts?

Then her slow steps towards the table and the increasing frequency of her scent made my heart race faster. I was scowling myself for what my mind was thinking. Stop thinking about her, the back of my mind shouted. I concentrated more on the words in front of me, but they seemed more blur the harder, I tried to look at them.

When she lifted the cup and placed it again on the tray making noise, which meant that she wanted my attention, the lost confidence in me came rushing back. I made myself hard and didn't look up at her for even once. The silence from yesterday night invaded my mind and all these feelings vanished like a magic. She didn't deserve my attention. She meant nothing to me, I reminded myself. Anger took back its place in my heart and I signed her to leave, raising my hand.

Then I heard her coming around the table to my side and then she kneeled down after standing for a second, straight in the direction of my sight. She was so stubborn, she had me look at her. I couldn't help but my gaze shifted at her naturally.

I knew anger glowed in my eyes, as it burned like a fire inside me. I was about to tell her to leave but then she covered her eyes with her hands leaving be completely baffled. What the hell was she doing? I looked at her in shock.

"Why are you giving me such angry looks? I am getting scared Abrar." She said in a rush.

I exhaled a deep breath, to control my anguish. After a moment of silence she slowly separated her fingers, to look through the gaps. I stared at her confused and at the same time with shock. She made me speechless sometimes with her behaviour.

I moved my eyes from her when she removed her hand from her face and at that moment our eyes met for a second. I shifted my chair back and got up, turning away from her being ready to leave. But she instantly grabbed my hand, getting up.

With every second her grip tightened around half of my hand. It sent shivers down my spine and I thought I couldn't resist touching her anymore.

I didn't waste a second and pushed her against the nearby wall. I pushed her deep against the wall holding her perfectly fitted wrist in my hand. I enclosed her with my body, and I could hear raged beating of heart. For a moment i closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, taking her in.