Dealing With A Muslimah{Complete} #Wattys2017

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Recap

"Zahrah, could I ask you something?" he asked.

"Sure dad, what is it that you want to ask?" I asked him.

"Beta..don't lie to me and tell me the truth. Are you happy with this marriage?" my eyes widened and my face fell. I didn't know the answer to this. I just stayed shut for a moment to think. Am I happy or not?

Follow me on another roller coaster of life, The coaster of breaking trust, trusting, and lying.

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"Ofcourse Papa, Iyfaaz is a great person and he really takes care of me. Why wouldn't I be happy?" I lied once again.

"I'm sorry for thinking that way kiddo, but it just seemed to me that your not happy, you guys barely talk." he said.

"No need to say sorry papa, and I'm just busy with you so we didn't get a chance to talk." I said.

"Hmm, ok and if there is anything wrong make sure you talk to me, I will always be there ." he said. I was about to answer when I saw that Iyfaaz is standing there waiting for me so we could leave.

"Sure, you will always be there for me." I said.

"Ok dad, Iyfaaz and I have work tomorrow so we should head home now. You take care and if you need me call me anytime. Allah Hafiz!" I said.

"Sure beta, you take care too, Allah hafiz!" he said.

I went to the car with Iyfaaz following behind me. I went straight into the back seat of his Audi R4 without saying a word. He went to the drivers seat and started driving. The car ride was extremely silent and I didn't want to talk either. As soon as we got home I unlocked the house and headed upstairs to my room to lay on the comfy bed. Even if this marriage is because my dad wanted us married, how could Iyfaaz do that? I never thought he would be like this. But I shouldn't have believed him. He's just like any other guy. He's not different like I thought so. Before I even know, tears started streaming down my eyes, I don't know why but it felt like my heart shattered into millions of pieces. How could that be? We only been married for a little while.

I put my head into the pillow and trying to stop myself from crying but I couldn't. I heard the door knob turn and the bed dip from the opposite side. I knew it would be Iyfaaz so I didn't turn around to look. I felt his hand around my waist and I pushed it off.

"Look Zahrah it's not what you think.." I didn't let him finish.

"I don't want to hear it and I'm really tired because I had a long day, I would like to sleep." I said coldly and got up with a blanket to sleep on the couch. I don't want to hear him. Why did my life to be full of struggles. First my father and now my, what could I call him.. my-so-called-husband.

"I know your upset and really mad so right now I won't say anything but when time comes you will know. But please don't sleep on the couch. Please I will sleep there not you. It's all my fault I had to be the one. Just a couple more months then I will set you free so you could be with someone who deserves you, unlike me. I'm sorry." he said calmly and almost like he was guilty . I know he's just trying to convince me so I just go back to bed and sleep and he heads to the couch.

What has my life become?

With that question running around my mind, sleep took over me.

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Hope you enjoy! I'm really busy getting ready to head back home from my long vacation, and scholls going to begin so updates will be very short from now. I'm sorry! And I will try to make dealing with a Muslimah longer than stranger inshallah!

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