School's actually been going pretty well for me . Everything's going as I planned . Even though I made at least two friends ( Girls ) I've kept my promise . No girls no feelings and definitely no crushes .
Ignoring the idea about falling for Jenny worked pretty well . The teasing reduced and so did the pressure... eventually I got free . Though some one or two mates won't let it go .
The siren sang in my ears with its piercing echoes again . Sometimes I just want to smash that thing with a hammer .
Mark and I stood under the tree close to the Economics class , opposite the school's dinning hall . " You guys are always together " Hannah smiled and sat on the bench ( lovers bench )
Yeah...Hannah . She's the second girl who somehow became my friend because Mark likes her and wouldn't stop forcing me to go wherever he goes . Especially when it has to deal with girls .
Oooh now I get it...when I'm around , it makes it easier for him to talk to girls . Clearly he's not so brave after all .
Mark , you sly boy .
What does it matter?...the semester is almost over . I did it ! Yes ! No girls !
I'm jubilating over not making friends with any girl for four months...Just like an imbissle .
" Yeah " I nodded slowly . I stared at them talk to each other .
It's been 20 minutes and they're still talking and I'm just standing there looking . Do they even realize I'm still standing with them . It's like I'm not even there ... Did I turn invisible or something ?
My heart feels heavy and my mind goes blank not knowing why I'm even standing with them . Another familiar feeling...being left out .
I walked past them unnoticed .
They didn't even see me leave . Wow that's so painful .
I turned to look at Mark and a single thought made me want to laugh . I huffed . He thinks she likes him too . She doesn't... Hannah's just nice to everyone . I thought she liked him till she personally told me she didn't .
Shoving my hands back in my pockets and forcing a fake smile as the other boys passed by , I walked aimlessly under the trees , around the canteen then back .
At least Mark knows how to make a move . He's taking chances unlike me who's scared to try at all .
" The sun's really hot today " I looked up ..." But why do I feel so cold on the inside "....Another emotional side effect . That's the feeling of loneliness and being left out .
The memories of my past flashed before my eyes .
Junior High School ...
2 weeks before graduation ...
I sat behind David and Helen and studied . Helen whispered something into his ears that made him nervous...then he wrote something on a paper for her to read .
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Scared To Love
Teen FictionWho knew running away from girls would be so difficult ? It's almost impossible when you're in a school mostly made up of girls . "I'm not making friends with any girl at all or even talk to them . I don't want to risk falling in love again" . I cou...
