"You're Alone Kokichi, And You Always Will Be" // A Saiouma Angst Story

Chapter 10 - Sorry, Saihara

Kaede's POV

My eyes seemed to skim over the text more than once, I couldn't believe what I just read. did Kaito thing that was gonna make me mad at Ouma somehow?

My eyebrows furrowed and my thumbs almost seemed to tapdance on my phone screen as I typed.

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But did he tell you about the part when Kokichi killed himself and got me executed..

no, he didn't, but why did Kokichi kill himself anyway?

Kaito has gone offline

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One part of me laughed at how Kaito didn't even know why, but the other part was wondering why Kokichi did it. Even though I was very curious I decided to not tell anyone about the information to avoid drama.

Kokichi's POV

I looked down at the blank calendar in front of me. I had a blue marker in my right hand as I started to mark a day for this month.

April 23rd

I drew a small bottle of pills next to the number and hung the calendar on my wall. I mean, im alone after all, right? No one would care if I died since I'm.. always... alone..

you're alone kokichi, and you always will be.

Tears threatened to fall out of my eyes but I wiped them away with my hand. All of a sudden I heard a knock on the door, I panicked and pulled one of the calender's pages over the current page.

I rushed to the door and calmed myself down for a brief second before opening it. There stood Shuichi.

Thoughts of him and Kaito hanging out earlier today flashed through my mind but I pushed them back.

"Hey Saihara-Chan! What's up?" He looked a bit confused but I ignored it, not knowing his intentions.

"Uh, Hey Kokichi. Me and Kaede are back so do you wanna hang out or something-?" My heart fluttered. "Yeah of course Shuichi!" I beamed.

Time skip

It was now nighttime as me and Shuichi were walking down the dorm halls. We actually spent some good time together, which didn't help the fact that I had a crush on him. We reached his dorm and I felt my heart sting, not wanting to leave.

"Bye Saihara~~! Wanna hang out again tomorrow?" I asked, trying to keep us in contact, I didn't want our new friendship to be broken so quickly.

"uhm, sorry Kokichi, I have plans tomorrow. Maybe another day?" I felt my heart shatter as he said that. "Yeah of course! Ok bye you dumb detective!" I laughed at my own joke before walking off to my own dorm.

As I layed down on my bed, I felt a bunch of guilt flood in. why did I call Shuichi dumb. he isn't dumb. I hate myself. why do I express my affection through being rude? whats wrong with me..

I just layed there, tears rolling down my cheeks. I wanted to go back to Shuichi. I pondered going over to his dorm, and soon enough, I was getting dressed to go over an hour later.

I walked down the hall, feeling bad about bothering him this late. I stood in front of his door for a few seconds before finally lifting my arm to knock.