Madeleine's POV
After Espresso's parents finished talking to me, Latté took them away from the castle and to her hotel room. Once they left I immediately stood and ran upstairs to find Espresso."Espresso?" I shout throughout the second floor of the castle. As I walk around, I hear distant shower noises.
I got to the bathroom door and gently knock on it watching it creak open as my knuckles hit the rich wood. "Espresso?" I whisper. I close my eyes just in case he isn't clothed, but as I walked inside I heard no shrieks or shouts.
Slowly opening my eyes, I see Espresso in the shower with his clothing fully on. His knees were up to his chest and he rested his head in it. I frown as I watch his body tremble and shake. He looked soaked. "Espresso..." I finally whimper disappointingly.
I close the door behind me and take off the metal bits of my armor. I set them off to the side as I sit beside him letting the cold shower water soak my clothes.
His crying was faint but auidible. I rest my hand on his cheek and slowly lift his head until I met his eyes. His tear filled eyes and heavy breathing melted me. "I hate myself, Madeleine.." he whispered.
I shake my head and sit in a position more comfortable, "Don't say that," I gesture him to lay in my lap, he follows quickly. I stroke him and smile. "You're amazing. Even if your parents don't think so, I think so."
I shudders and wipes his tears, "I just don't even understand why I try anymore... anything and everything I do disappoints them and I just can't..." he holds to me close with shaking hands. "I can't do it anymore... I don't want to do it anymore..."
"You got this," I reply softly, I gently press my lips on top of his head, unfortunately he didn't notice. "I believe in you and I shall support you no matter what you are going through... you mean so much to me."
"I'm sorry..." he whispers. I hug him tightly as he coughs roughly. He holds out his hands coughing the blood into his palms and taking a shaky after breath.
I take his blood filled hand and place it under the shower head. After it was clean, I kiss the back of it and rest it over his mouth gently. "You do not have to be sorry, Espresso." I remind him, "You are so important to me. I would rather die than for you to feel this way."
"NO!" he shouted hugged me tighter than before. I could barely breathe from how tight he was holding me, "Don't go," he said a panic, "Don't go..."
I shook my head, "I'm right here. You have nothing to fear," I smile and pet the back of his head lightly.
His breathing was so unsteady I knew if he was standing he would collapse immediately. "Is this too cold?" I ask as he begins shivering.
"Can you make it warmer, please?" he asked. I smile and nod my head turning the knob closer to the red line.
Doing so, I feel his heart against me racing itself. I look down to him and finally put two and two together. "Espresso, could you possibly have... anxiety?"
I see the sad shock in his face as he slowly nods and closed his eyes. I quietly chuckle and hug him tighter, "There's one more reason to love you more..." I widen my eyes, "L-Like you more. E-Erm," I blush, "Like... a-as a friend, of course!" I assure quickly.
Espresso sighed and rested his head on my shoulder. "I'm tired..." he whispered. I noticed his breathing again, now. Shaking. Heavy.
I nod quietly and turn off the water, "Ok." I whisper back. I stand waiting for him to do the same, but he nearly passed out as soon as he picked himself up to his feet. "How about I carry you," I worryingly chuckle. Luckily, he nodded and allowed me to lift him up and dry him with a towel.
Once we were dried off, I tie up my hair and lift him. His legs clutched tightly around my torso. "And we're off," I smile. I walk toward the stairs slowly allowing Espresso to catch his breath and calm down.
I look over at him. He was already half asleep. "Madeleine," he whispered. "Can you stay with me," he asked, "Please?"
I smile softly and nod. "Of course."
When we arrive to my room, I lay on the bed as Espresso climbs on top of me and lays on my chest letting out a shaking sigh. "This feels like home," he whimpered.
I snicker and smile, "I'm glad."
"What happens after the ball..." he whispered. Suddenly the world fell quiet. Still. It felt like it had stopped rotating. "Will I have to go... home?" Espresso slowly looked up at me tears in his eyes again.
I frown and rest my hand to his head. I push on him slightly leaning his head back down on my chest. "I..." I sigh, "I don't know..."
Suddenly I hear his breathing speed, "No," he whispered, "I don't want to go home! I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK HOME!"
"Shh, shh..." I hug him tightly and kiss his head again. He still didn't notice.
"P-PLEASE!" he cried. I feel as his breathing slowly slowed down and his body weakened. "Don't... leave me..." Espresso closed his eyes and drifted.
At his rate, I didn't know if he had fallen asleep or passed out from exhaustion. I frown and close my eyes. I played with his hair for a while until I finally feel the tears in my eyes fall.
"I promise, starlight," I whisper knowing he couldn't hear me. "I will stay by your side," I kiss his head, "No matter what. I will stay with you forever and ever and ever... and ever." I close my eyes again and swallow hard.
I hold him close as if he were leaving tomorrow. I cry quietly like I wouldn't see him again. I kiss his head multiple times as if I would not be able to ever again. "I love you starlight," I whisper as if he was still awake.
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a commander's waltz
FanfictionMadeleine Cookie, commander of a cookie kingdom meets the tsundere book worm, Espresso Cookie when Espresso's sister signed him up for ball dancing lessons. As they learn to deal with one another, they begin to slowly grow closer. And closer. And c...