Mahi- A shattered soul

33. I Need Him The Most

Mahi's Pov:

My heart become restless after
seeing Rabia.
There is definitely something wrong that's why she is here.
I hope Saif is ok.
I will kill myself if something will happen to him.
But what about my baby?
How it will survive without Saif?
No, no nothing will happen.
Saif always told me to be positive and think good. He told me if we
will think positive then positive things will happen to us.
I have to calm down.
First for my baby and then for myself.
Nothing bad will happen.

God loves us.
He will not do such thing to me.
He will not make my life a living hell.
I assured myself and take a deep breathe.

"You ok?" Rabia asked.
I nod while wiping my tears.
"Tell me honestly, how is Saif? Even
if something bad had
happened then tell me that also.
Don't hide anything from me just because I am pregnant" I said to Nusrat aunty.
"Only 45 minutes are left and he still didn't get conscious, doctors said that chances are negligible" she said in a breaking tone.

"Don't worry there are 45 minutes left right, it's too much time
he will wake up soon, yeah he will
be up soon. Everything will be fine" I assured her or you can say I assured myself.
"And you told me I am pregnant,
is that true?" I asked looking at my mother.
"Yes beta, you are pregnant but your body is weak. Don't stress
yourself otherwise it may harm your baby. Doctors said that
your body is not much strong to carry a baby" she explained.
I nod.
"No problem, once Saif will get fine he will take care of me and the baby" I said to her.
"Thats what I want. Tell me everything honestly and truthfully because I hate liars" I said.

Rabia was sitting at a sofa which is a little far from the bed where I was lying.

"Huma also wanted to come here but I stopped her" Nusrat aunty said.
"Yeah, you did right. She's also
pregnant and afterall we
all are here for Saif" I said controlling myself from breaking down.
I will not cry.
In these days there are so many things that I had learned from
Saif and one of those things are to be strong at tough times.

He always told me to fight like a warrior not a worrier.
And now I am not alone his baby is with me. How can I not be strong!

I take another deep breathe.

Door opened Asar uncle came inside.
"You are up, how are you feeling?" He asked me.
"I am fine. How is Saif?" I asked with hope in my eyes.
"Doctors are looking after him. His heart stops beating" he said.
What!??
No no no
No God, no...Please this can't happen. Pleassse save him.
How will I live without him.
Noo! Please.
Tears start flowing from my eyes.

Nusrat aunty get up and went outside followed by Asar uncle.
I know they all don't want to cry infront of me.
God please if you want anything
can happen.
Please do some miracle and save him for the sake of his unborn baby.

Now I am alone in the cabin, crying
my heart out.
I can't go out as a syringe is attached in my hand.
Doctors forbade me to get up before the completion of this bottle of glucose.

Just take my life instead of him.

I don't want to live at that place where Saif is not present.
I feel a sudden ache in my lower abdomen.
I groaned in pain.
Hearing my voice a nurse came in.
She again went out to call the doctor.
After some times a doctor
came inside.
"What happened?" She asked.
"It's..pai..paining so much" I whimpered.
The nurse made me lay on the bed properly.
Doctor gave me an injection and said that it will help me.
"Don't get up from your bed" she said and went out.

No one can understand the pain I am feeling right now.
Doctor gave me the medicine
for the pain I am feeling in my stomach but what about the pain
which I am feeling in my heart!
Who will give me the medicine for the pain in my heart.
No one
No one can
Because
Saif is the only medicine I need.
I close my eyes letting the tears fall.

After half an hour which felt like an eternity.
Mummy entered, my heart starts beating wildly.
It feels like someone pierced
a sword in my chest.

I get up from the bed.

"Please tell me he is ok. I can't afford to loose him. Pleaasee....tell me everything is fine. I will die without him. Don't tell me he lef..." she cut me off
"Stop my dear, and yeah everything is fine" she said.
"What!?" I asked not being able to understand her words.
"Saif got his conscious" she said.
"Really!??" I asked again.
"Yeah" she said.

Thank God!
Thank you so much!
I burst into tears.
"Oh..my..God thank...youuu..thank..you so much"

I can't explain how happy I am right now.
I take a breathe of satisfaction.
A breathe of peace.
A breathe of happiness.
A breathe of gratefulness.

"I want to meet him" I said.
"Let the doctors shift him to the normal cabin first" she said.
I nod
"But still you have to wait. Doctor told us not to let you walk for now" she said.
"But..." I protest
"No buts, he is fine don't worry. Take care of yourself and your baby" she said in a cold tone.
I don't protest much.
He is safe that is enough for me.

I am still feeling pain in my
lower abdomen but it's not that much.
I lay back on the bed and
close my eyes.
How will he react when he will get to know about my pregnancy!? I thought.
What will be his first reaction!?
Will he be happy or be shocked?
How he will look while holding our baby in his hands?
Will our baby love rain like Saif or it will love moon like me?
Or maybe both.
Will it be a boy or a girl?
No matter what the gender will
be, I will  love the baby
more and more.

The nurse came inside my cabin.
"When the doctors will let me meet my husband?" I asked her.
She didn't reply.
I furrowed my brows,
Strange!
It been hours why they aren't letting me meet him, I thought.

The nurse gave me another injection.
I feel my eyes are getting heavy and soon I slept.

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Maine ye to naa kaha tha meri zindagi ko aag laga di jaye.

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