Mahi- A shattered soul

36. Journey to Eternity Begins

Mahi's Pov:

Ever since Saif came to know about my pregnancy he is super conscious
about my health.
I am so happy that we are going to start our family soon but this pregnancy is so hectic and tiring.
And my cravings are insane.
Like at midnight I suddenly started craving for such foods which
I didn't even like.
Huff!
But I can't wait to welcome our baby.

We came back home after check up.
Saif went to the company for some work.
Being honest, I still got scared whenever he went out of the house.
I discussed this with Nusrat Aunty also but she told me to forget what
happened in the past.
It was just a bad memory.
Well she's kinda right.

Currently I am on terrace sitting on the stairs.
I sit at upper stair so that I don't have to bend my legs much.
As it'll be difficult for me to bend my leg due to my bump.

I am looking at the sky.
It's 7 in the evening.
The moon is shining just like my life.
I smiled.
I remember the day when I cried looking at the moon and today I am smiling while looking at it.
Life is unpredictable.

I feel someone opened the door of the terrace.
I look behind and saw it is Rabia.
I sighed and turned back.

She came and sat on a stair below me.
"Moon is still your favourite isn't it?" She said.
I hummed in response.
"What about rain? Do you still hate it?" She asked.
"Nope" I said.
"Why?" She questioned.
"Now I love rain because he loves it" I replied.
"Oh, I see" she said.
"Why are you here?" I asked.
"I am here to apologize from the very start Mahi" She said.
"I don't need..." she cut me in between
"Atleast listen to me please" she said.

I didn't say anything.

"Mahi, I am sorry. I was very much jealous of you.
And this jealousy had started from the day of our result. When you topped in entire college and I scored
below average. I just managed to pass the exam.
After collecting the marksheet from college when I went back home and told my family about our results, my sister told me that I scored
low because I shared my notes with you. I went back to my room, when I layed on my bed I thought that it's true. I mean, I thought that yeah you manipulated me to not to study meanwhile you used to say that don't study, what we will get
by studying so much just for fun but the fact was that I was in guilt
because I didn't studied properly and I wanted to blame someone for my bad results so I just putted all the
blame on you.
And that's the day when I decided to take revenge on you" she said.

I keep listening to her quietly. Now I really don't care why the hell she did it.
She continued.

"Because in our entire school and college life you were better
than me in studying, sports, smartness and all. The only thing I could snatch from you was Amaan.
Yeah, I liked him too. I mean,
he was the most good looking in college but I was not in love with him.
Just to get revenge on you I approached him. I wanted to break you.
I wanted to see you cry just like I did after my results when my parents yelled on me.
Till your wedding I was not in love with Amaan.
But when he stepped down from marrying you at the
last moment just because I said him to do so, I fell in love with him.
I thought he loves me so much that he cheated on you just beacuse I said him to do so.
It was not his fault Mahi. I am your criminal. But...(chuckle) as we know you are God's favourite child.
Saif came in your life.
I wanted you to be shattered but he didn't let you break.
He hold you in his arms in such a way that I didn't got even one percent of satisfaction.
I realised my mistake Mahi. Please forgive me.
I know you used to consider me as your own sister but what I did in return is truly unacceptable.
I am guilty Mahi. I am so much in guilt" she said.

"If you are done then you can leave" I said.
I don't want to see her face neither I want to hear her voice.
I just wish her well but I can not forgive her.
I can not forget how much I was in love with Amaan.
Despite knowing it she did this.