Her | BTS FF✔

Taehyung || Last Thought

WARNING: This chapter may contain sensitive topics and strong language. Viewer discretion is advised.
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2 years passed since then.

Alot of things happened.

Jin was now married and has a baby girl. He named her Jinae.

Today is Y/N's 5th death anniversary.

It's still unbelievable...

I stared at her gravestone as I clutched unto the flowers in my hand.

I've been doing this for the past 5 years, why does my chest feel heavier now?

It's because I'm alone.

Everyone had their hands tied today.

Looking at her name, beautifully engraved with gold on a white stone, I felt the tears threatening to fall.

My chest heaved painfully, the silence deafening.

It was almost fall. The air was cool and a bit harsh.

I kneel down, touching her gravestone as I placed the flowers to the side.

"I..." I don't know what to say.

Speak from your heart, Taehyung. Always speak from your heart.

Her voice echoes through my head.

(Flashback)
"Don't overthink! They chose you to speak because they know what's in your heart." She smiles, sitting across the room with her voice loud and clear.

I was standing infront of her with my hands in my pockets.

We were finally gonna graduate grade school and I was relieved, but I didn't understand why they chose me to speak.

"I don't know what's in my heart..." I say, looking at her with a pure expression.

She laughs, the lightest, most heavenly laugh I ever heard.

"I'm in your heart silly! Me and Sohee! Also your parents, and our class! Just say what you want to tell all of us."

I stared at her as she spoke every word.

...

She laughs as she looked at me.

My parents left for a business trip so it was only me, Y/N, and Sohee.

Saying I was bored would be an understatement.

This was torture.

I groan again, letting myself fall backwards on the sofa.

As I was staring at the ceiling, Sohee suddenly thought of something.

"What?" I sat back up. "Let's make a promise!"

"A promise?" I looked at Y/N as she looked back at me, shrugging.

"A promise! Let's be bestfriends together forever! Don't fall in love with anyone of us three!" She suggests.

My eyes searched for the bracelet that Y/N was wearing.

I already promised her... And she promised me.

I looked into her eyes, knowing that it would make a big impact towards us if we agreed to Sohee.

But she didn't know anything about me and Y/N.

And even if I did promise now, I already would've broken it.

"Sure!" Both me and Y/N chime at the same time, shocking each other.

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"Look in your heart. What does your heart say?" Y/N asks, looking at me with her innocent doe eyes.

It was our 2nd year in highschool and we were partners on composing a song.

After we composed it, we'd have to sing it infront of the class.

I stare at the blank sheet of paper quietly and patiently sitting on top of the table.

Blood rushed through my cheeks as thoughts of Her filled my mind.

Then I find myself scribbling down everything I wanted to say.

(End of flashback)

Ever since, we'd randomly compose songs of our own just for the fun of it.

"Sing what your heart wants to say..." I whisper her words.

I closed my eyes, helplessly trying to stop my tears from falling.

"Love is so painful,
Goodbyes are even more painful..."

But I wasn't even able to say goodbye...

"I can’t go on if you’re not here...
Love me, love me...
Come back to my arms..."

I know it's impossible... But I want to hope.

"Love is not over, over, over..."

Our meeting, our fights...

"Love is not over, over, over..."

Our smiles, our jokes, our laughs...

"Love is not over, over, over..."

Our memories... Our unsaid love...

I never want it to end.

"Love is not over, over, over."

I shut my eyes closed, trying to stop my tears, but in vain.

They were overflowing, seeping out of my closed lids as my breathing irregulates.

My knuckles which clutched on the ground turns white as my body shakes violently.

I wanted to speak, but my body doesn't.

A lump forms painfully in my throat and my rapid breathing doesn't allow me to do so.

I shake my head, forcefully swallowing the painful lump and took in a deep breath.

With a shaky voice I started out.

"I just wanted you to know...

I only loved you...

I only thought of you.

I didn't know why I ever doubted my feelings for you...

How I ever thought of bringing Sohee to your level...

I never deserved you Y/N...

You're an angel and...

I'm just a pathetic man.

A man who failed in the end.

I thought that you were too out of reach for me and, now you are.

But...

Maybe if I wasn't stupid enough...

Maybe...

Just maybe...

We could've made it work."

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This the the official end of this book. I'm sorry if it disappointed the readers but this is how I want to end it. Who knows. I might add special chapters. Comment if you have any suggestions.