The pain and sadness are still there.
I'm still not the type filled with cheer.
But that frown I'll now turn around,
And at least try to not be down.
I can't make things fall into place;
I've no control of time or space.
I can't make them see what I see.
I can't force people to stay with me.
So it's time to find happiness in dark.
Find joy, even if only a spark.
Because the reason I'm as bad as I am,
Is because I give way too much of a damn.
Let things fall into chaos.
Let those nightmares come true.
Just choose instead not to care.
All that really matters is you.
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I'm having so much trouble convincing myself I'm ok. But it's true, happiness is a choice. We just need to let go of all the pain so that we can feel joy. It's a lot harder than it sounds, I know first hand. I'm sick of feeling this way. I just want to erase it, remove the thoughts of darkness.
My husband still hasn't returned, I think I just need to stop waiting for it. All I'm doing is mending and breaking my own heart over and over again. I love him, but I just need to accept I'm not what he wants anymore.
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Depression?
PoetryThis is a collection of my sad poetry I've accumulated over the years. I hope that those who read this can relate in some way. My sincerest hope is that it helps people feel less alone. I do not wish to make anyone feel worse than they already are...
