𝐀𝐋𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 ‣ jjk

五十七 ; the beautiful you

day 19
10.10 pm
lee haru

the beautiful you

if there's one thing i'm grateful to the boys for
it's for a room in a 4 star hotel
one that they offered to pay half
and they would've paid it full if
jeongguk hadn't stopped them

we wave our goodbyes after stepping into the room
and i stretch my arms into the air with a tired groan

jeongguk is the first to claim
the queen sized bed
he manages to breathe a satisfying
"heaven" before throwing himself down
and closing his eyes as he relaxes into the bed

"take a bath you idiot
you stink"

jeongguk shakes his head and yawns loudly
"later, let me enjoy this feeling a bit longer"

i pull him up by the arm
struggling hard as he laughs at my useless efforts
"jeon jeong—"
and all of a sudden i'm hovering over him
with his hands on my waist
and my face dangerously close to his

he pastes a smile on his lips
and makes eye contact with my shocked ones
his hand on my waist
and my hands on either sides of his head are the
only things steadying me

but he doesn't seem worried about me falling

"w-what are you doing?"
i manage to pipe out, and he smiles even wider
as if not surprised in any way about the
weird position that we are in

"you're cute when you're all shy and flustered"
he teases
and my face immediately heats up

"i-i'm not shy and flustered
what are you talking ab—"

and then he shifts me around
pinning my hands to the bed and smirking devilishly
i wiggle underneath his body
gulping nervously

stop blushing i swear to god
act cool, act cool

jeongguk leans down
until i feel his calm breathing on my face
he's coming closer
and closer
and closer
and oh god
his lips are parting
oh no

i shut my eyes, bracing for impact
but nothing ever comes
and my lips are left feeling
empty and dry and—

yearning
shit

i open my eyes again to see that grin replaced
with the softest smile i've ever seen
in my entire life

when i least expect it
he places a hand on my cheek
and i feel his lips on my forehead in an instance
he pecks it slowly, deeply
before pulling back to stare into my eyes

i swear my heart is going to
jump out of my chest
he kissed me
jesus
jeon jeongguk just kissed me

"i always wanted to kiss a girl on the forehead"
he says with a soft chuckle
"i should've asked for permission right?
i'm sorry"

when i finally find my voice again
i mumble out a nervous "n-no it's fine"

"thank you"
jeongguk says as he tucks a fringe behind my ear
my heart pounds harder
from how close our bodies are

i can feel the calm warmth radiating off him
and the care and love i never got to feel before

but he's just doing this
because he's grateful that i'm around
isn't he?

"thank you for staying by me"
he continues again
a little softer this time

i love him
the words ring in my head
like some sort of mantra
i love him
i really do

but what am i?
he's a celebrity
loved by the nation and the world
but i'm a nobody who already
has a ring on her finger

why would perfect jeon jeongguk
love someone as imperfect as me?

i want to say "i love you"
but the words are stuck in my throat
aching to come out
instead i say nothing

the snow falls harder outside
leaving mists on the window of our hotel room
and just like the falling snow
jeongguk is beautiful