CORNERS

Born Again

The world stood still ,
The dawn was yet to begin,
Drumming heartbeat was the only noise I could listen.
As  I embarked towards the dawn of my life ,
An answer to my agonies ,pain and cries.
Much had I lost and much I knew I would loose,
But choice was made and  this was the only thing everytime I would choose.
But couldn't deny the lurching fear in my heart,
What if I failed was what I consistently thought.
Tears invaded my eyes as sky by clouds,
Alas! how could I forget it was the only thing I was going to do my mother wasn't proud.
O how it pained ,
to be estranged,
From loved ones,
No doubt gonna miss to be called as ' my beloved son'.

But I  was ready to make this sacrifice,
As I know HE would suffice,
My identity was going to change,
From today onwards many might think me as deranged,
But had my heart trained,
As for this loss ,much more I was gonna gain.

As I stood outside ,
Where my life turned upside,
Perspiring in the cold,
Yet eager for the new chapter of life to unfold.
As I entered inside ,
My fear faded with known and unknown faces smiles,
At that moment I know I wasn't alone,
As finally I found a home.
Sitting down I muttered Bismillah,
And gave my words that ALLAH was the only illah,
And  Muhammad ( peace be upon him) HIS Rasool,
Thus beginning my journey as AR RAHMAN 's Abdul.
Causing eruptions of takbeer,
That moment, that feelings was so surreal yet so real,
And the numerous hugs that I had to deal,
Grateful I was to be blessed with such genteel.

Tears rebelled no matter how I blinked,
So I kneeled and prostrated and in the ground let it sink.
Unceasing tears flowed,
But it was the happiness in my heart that explode,
And the joy that overflowed.
Ya Rab ! Ya Rab! Was what I could whisper,
Between the sobs and whimpers.
How could I ever describe the joy of guided back to my Rab,
I was like a long lost kid who finally found his mum.
Again was I born,
With a precious gift of iman.
My heart found truth and soul relief ,
My conscious constantly chanting : I believe ! I believe! I believe!
Calmness and tranquility,
Engulfed me in entirety,
O undescribable was the feeling of praying first time Salah,
No intermediary ,just me and my ALLAH,
And like that i found  the real success ,the real falah ,
Consumed in this rapturous bliss,
The only words that left my lips,
Were just this:
O my Lord , I believe so write me down among witnesses.

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Bismillah

Okay so I am very fond of watching videos of people taking shahadah ...it's just boost my imaan seeing someone finding his/her way back to Ar RAHMAN SWT....finding light after years of darkness....so I just tried portray those feelings in my naive poetry....hope you could connect.....

Question for today:

)In which surah of Quran does the name Ahmed of Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) is mentioned?

Please do recite Ayat ul Kursi before you end the chapter.

Do remember me and entire ummah in your duas

Faqat abd e Rahmana
Sadaf

Assalmuaalaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuhu🌼