Silently Screaming Birthday
**Journee**
[Saturday]
I just woke and I am another year older and I look back over my life and just feel numb over everything. People on their birthday are happy and partying me I just want to die and join them.
I get up head to bathroom and take a long warm shower. I sitting here watching television as the day passes by. I got it in me that I want to do something that I haven’t done in so long.
It is now 7:30 I guess I should start getting ready.
**Ethan**
After I got off work I went home took a shower and went to get Journee some roses. Thought flow through my mind and I wonder why she wants be alone. As I pull up to her apartment complex I see her walking out the door. She doesn’t look to be going to work. But I could be wrong. I’ll follow her and see.
She pulls up to a Karaoke club. What in heavens name is she doing here? This club somewhat racist and she is going in there. Why?
I stay in back in a dark corner so that I am not seen. “What can I get you to drink sir?” A blond woman asks me while poking out her breast in my face. “Plain ice water please.” “I’ll be right back with your drink.”
**Journee**
I peep from behind the curtains I see a white girl up their singing some song getting a lot of attention from guys. I just want to breathe again.
“Let’s hear it for Emily. She did great singing ‘man I feel like a woman’. Whooh. Next, we have a new face her name is Journee. Let’s give her a warm welcome.”
I hear the hand claps until they see me then everything changes. I sit on the stool and look out at all the faces I take a deep breath and begin to sing
Someone point me in the right direction
Tell me where's the nearest piece of mind?
I'm going crazy
Knight in shining armor in the distance
He sees the angel threatening my life
Why won't he save me?
All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I'm struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too
And all I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that genuinely cares
But I'm just dreaming
It's like I'm silently screaming
Even though I'm totally surrounded
I feel like I'm in here by myself
How about you do it cause you love me?
Not cause you want something in return
Is that so crazy?
Crazy
In the middle of the sea of helpless
But see, I never learned how to swim
Somebody save me
Somebody save me
All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I'm struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too
And all I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that genuinely cares
But I'm just dreaming
It's like I'm silently screaming
Somebody to catch me when I fall
Somebody to help me through it all
Someone I can trust
Tell me if I'm asking too much
All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I'm struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too
All I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that I can genuinely trust
But I'm just dreaming
It's like I'm silently screaming
Even though I'm totally surrounded
Silently screaming
I feel like I'm in here by myself
Silently screaming
Standing looking out no claps or nothing. Everybody is looking at the black girl with tears coming down her face.
“Thank you” I say lowly and with a crack voice.
When I turn to walk off her here claps and lots of compliments but I just want to finally find me again. I walk away still crying from everything that has been and still is weighing heavily on me.
** Ethan **
I’m watching Journee sing and I can’t believe what I am hearing. She sounds flawless. Even with tears coming down her face. She is broken yet in this moment she is so beautiful. I am finally seeing her soft side the broken part of her. These lyrics she is crying out for help, but why in a room full of people who don’t know her. She is finishing and my heart goes out to her and I need to know what is going on with her.
She is leaving the stage I pay for my drink and rush out the door to catch her before she leaves, I grab her card and flowers and wait for her. I see her come out the back door. Her eyes hold more than tears.
“Journee!” “Ethan! What are you doing here?” “The other day I overheard your conversation I know today is your birthday. Happy Birthday Journee.” I say to her while giving her, her gifts. “Eavesdropping I see. Thank you very much Ethan.” “You sung beautiful. I still have chills.” Her face and eyes hold a pain that I can’t figure out. “Thank you. I’m going home. Ethan, do you know what I am?” “I know what you do if that is what you’re asking.” “Then stay away from me” She says then rushes and gets in the car and drives away.
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