It's late
But as my stomach flutters
And my eyes bend shut
I remember
I am disgusted with my life
I am lost
In a sea of pity
I am lost
In an ocean of lonely
Only a creature
With no sense of language
Sputters before me
And I am not okay
For the first time
I can clearly say
That this is not okay
Day after day
Begging for something that wasn't meant to be
Day after day
Searching my soul for a lost cause
But I kept wallowing on it
And digging
Until I was buried
But I had thus forgotten I was a seed
And growth was within me
Grow up to move mountains
And know it's the little lessons
That save you later in life
I may have been lonely once
But I need to be lonely twice
To remember that
Holding on
Can sometimes harm more
Than letting go
And I should never let go
For then I will notice
That somebody cares
~vivi
