reason ✈️ Jenlisa

20. Be my mistake

Hola! Blessed morning everyone another update for y'all, and for a better reading play the song above when I pointed out at the chapter.

Lisa's POV

I stare hardly at the boy in front of me who's looking uneasy as he gulped a few times not meeting my gaze. "I'm really sorry ma'am but that's our protocol but if you wanted we can call a cab for y-"

The boy jumped out slightly when I slam my fist at the table and stand up stumbling slightly as I holds the counter for support. "I know the owner of this bar! If I asked for alcohol you give me!" I spat angrily, he looks scared as I know my veins probably popping up in my neck now while my face and ears turning red, I feel hot all over my body.

And when the boy said sorry once again I know it's useless if I tried again. Why can't he just give me whiskey? That's all I'm asking for christ sake. I huffed before turning around stumbling multiple times on my way out.

I stopped beside my car and slowly shakes my head but quickly stop as I realized my head is spinning by doing that. Instead I shake my index finger no. "Rule number 1; No driving while drunk." I turned my heels and decided to Just walk. No way I ain't giving them another reason to hate me. Unless I died straight by bumping on the track but what If I survived? No way I'd rather walk I'm not risking that.

I kept blowing my hand as the cool breezing annoyingly hit against me. This is torture why the heck did I even walk? Oh right.. Because I'm stupid. Insensitive bitch, useless pathetic girl. And fuckin' Liar. right.. this is not enough torture I should probably walk into burning hell.

"Hey,"

I deserve all of this..

"Hey!" I turned around when someone grabbed my arm. I squinted my eyes to try to figure who's this talking to me. "are you alone? Maybe you want me to drive you home?" He smile towards me.

"hm" I tried to turn around again but he tightened his grip. "We can have a good time yea? You look like freezing I can warm you up." really gal?

I chuckle as I push his hands of me and started to walk away flipping him off. "Go fuck yourself nigga! Happy Halloween!" I continue to laugh and I suddenly stumbled on my feet, tasting a metallic on my tongue. That's when I realized he just punched me on the mouth and I looked up to see his angry face, spit on me then walked away.

I sigh before letting out a laugh and I turn on my back facing the cold flourish floor. I couldn't stop myself from laughing there's just something so funny about this situation.

I stared out onto the darkness of the night seeing thousands of star. Wow I really do love stargazing this feels nice. I don't want this feeling to go away. For a moment I feel so light and just.. I don't know empty? Honestly I'd rather choose this feeling being empty than feel everything.

Then realization hit me once again as I remember how fuck up my life are really is. I couldn't get away with this no matter how many alcohol I chugged. from my mother, I failed to protect her from our nightmare from the past and now it's hunting us again. I should've told her so she can leave marco but then.. I frowned upon realizing how my mom's gonna broke down. I don't want that but.. But marco he doesn't deserve my mom he's an asshole just like my father. I.. I couldn't- I don't know what to do.

Should I tell about this to my cousin?
But he want nothing to do with me anymore. How can I even..

"You're the worst! you're like this good and perfect daughter in front of them but when they turn around you do shits just like most of us but still get all the praises and credits!