who are you really? | minjoon

28. knock on the door

2 months have passed since Namjoon last saw Jimin. Everyday he cried and he suffered not only the loss of his romantic relationship but also all the ties with Yoongi and Hoseok were cut.

He thought about Jimin everyday, he though about Yoongi and he thought about Hoseok too. So much to the point where he couldn't concentrate one bit on his job. Every time he took up an offer to be a substitute teacher, he would be shot down. All of the headmasters had heard of him and how he didn't pay attention to the students and wasn't a proper teacher. 

So now Namjoon was taking odd jobs here and there, desperately trying to put his life back together. He took the place of Park Jimin.

It was a late night and Namjoon had finished mopping the bar clean, ready to go back home.

Suddenly he heard the bar door open, followed with a "Hello?"

Namjoon's ears shot up as he recognized the voice of his ex-fake-boyfriend - Jimin.

"J-Jimin?"

"Y-You're... Namjoon."

"YOONGI?!"

Min Yoongi was standing next to Jimin, his eyes shifting to stare back at Namjoon.

"W-WHAT'S GOING ON?"

"O-Oh... Y-Yoongi is my boyfriend now, he came knocking on my door and even though I refused at first. He managed to convince me to go out with him, nothing romantic and just to apologize for everything. However, I realized that Yoongi was the one and that when he left me was not entirely his fault."

"And now, Chim Chim and I are boyfriends." Yoongi flashed a gummy smile.

Before he knew it, Namjoon had tears running down his face.
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"Joonie. Yah! Joon! OI! NAMJOON-AH!"

Namjoon's eyes burst open as he sat up startled by the annoying and loud voice that was in his ear.

"H-Hoseok?"

"Yes it's me. I came over to check up on you. I know Yoongi doesn't like you anymore but I'm still your friend." Namjoon completely overlooked the fact that Hoseok broke into his apartment again because he was just so shocked.

"B-But..."

"I think you were having a really bad dream, you were sweating and wriggling around. You 'kay now?"

"T-That w-was a dream?"

"What did you dream about?"

"I-I dreamt that you and Yoongi h-hated me... a-and..."

"And...?"

"Yoongi and Jimin were dating."

"Oh Joonie..." Hoseok pulled him into a hug.

"I know what to do now. I don't want my dream to come true. I'm going over to Jimin's."

"W-Wait! it's only been a day after you guys broke up, are you sure you want to go to him?"

"Yes. 100% yes."

"Then, I don't have any objections. Don't get your heart broken again though, otherwise I will really be kicking some ass."

"Thanks Hobi." Namjoon gave Hoseok a soft smile as he exited the door.
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"WHAT?! LET ME GO BEAT THAT GUY'S ASS RIGHT NOW! HOW DARE HE DO THIS! TWICE! I'LL F***ING KILL HIM!" Jimin used all of his might to try hold his enraged best friend back, not wanting him to use violence at any cost.

"Calm down! I... don't care."

"Even though you don't care, I do. Sure our friendship started off an accident but I now I fricking love you dude. NOW LET ME GO KICK HIS ASS!"

"N-No!" Still desperately trying to hold Taehyung back.

That was until they heard a knock on the door.

"Uh... IF YOU'RE THE MAILMAN PLEASE LEAVE IT AT THE DOOR!"

"I-IT'S NOT THE MAILMAN!"

"Jiminie~ You have to go open the door now~" Taehyung smirked as he could easily escape once the door was open.

"F-Fine." Being the courteous gentleman he is, he just couldn't help but turn the doorknob.

But shut it immediately once he realized who it was.

"Go away."

"C-Can we not talk through the door?" Namjoon pleaded.

"Jimin, who is it?" Taehyung asked.

"I said to go away, otherwise I'll call the cops."

"P-Please..."

"I said leave."

"I-I..."

"I won't hesitate Namjoon."

"NAMJOON?! LET ME HAVE A GO AT THAT BASTARD!"

"TAE! He isn't as bad as Yoongi so keep all your strength for him."

"Fine..." Taehyung pouted and walked away to plop onto the couch.

"Jimin, please let me explain everything."

"LEAVE-"

"I LOVE YOU!" Namjoon covered his mouth as he realized what he said.

Jimin stood still, glued to the spot.

"Chim Chim I-"

"YOU CAN'T JUST SAY SHIT LIKE THAT! A-And... d-don't call me Chim Chim... Suga called me Chim Chim..."

"S-So that's why your username is- Never mind, I just want you to know, that day that we went to Everland... I was acting on my own accord. I really like you Jimin. E-Even though we don't have to date, I feel uncomfortable with the fact you hate me."

"I-I can't trust you. H-How do I know you aren't lying?"

"H-Honestly... you can't. But, I swear I'm not. Please give me a second chance."

"I-I... It was my fault that I fell for Suga again, or Yoongi now apparently. He enticed me with his words, and I couldn't help but fall for him all over again. But now, that bastard has thrown away any trust I ever had in him. I really can't just go to you either, I mean, you're pathetic. You let him walk all over you and even fell in love with me."

"I know, I know-"

"I hate it."

"What?"

"I hate it. I hate how all of my real and existing emotions gets toyed with people like you. You use me, then throw me away like nothing. What I really despise is... is..." At this point, Jimin started to break down.

"I hate the fact that I like you back. But I also hate the fact that I'm attracted to Suga, but definitely not in love with him and I don't like him in any way. Both of you- I-" Jimin started crying.

"Just leave please."

Namjoon let a dejected sigh escape his lips, before scribbling his number on a receipt.

"I-I don't give up, but I do respect other people and their limits. If you ever change your mind, you can contact me through the number of the piece of paper I left on your doorstep. Goodbye, Park Jimin."

With that, Namjoon left. A stream of tears rolling down his cheeks, his hands brought up to his face to hide the shame.

"I guess, I'm just really unlucky... any person I fall in love with, I care for... they all just end up leaving me."