Castles Crumbling | S. Stilinski

30| Everything feels so real and I hate it

"I want to lay in bed."

"We agreed to do this.." I yank Lizzie's blanket off of her. "Get up and get dressed."

I walk out of her room and go back to mine. I finish my make up because I don't want to look ugly at the rave regardless of the reason for being there.

Minutes later Lizzie comes in my room ready. I smile and throw a portal. We both walk through it. I look around for Scott. I find Stiles by his Jeep instead.

"Go inside.. I'll meet you."

I walk towards Stiles. He doesn't even look at me.

"Where's Scott?"

"No idea. He ran inside."

I can tell there's something wrong.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing." He snaps. "I'm sorry.. it's my dad. He lost his job."

"Stiles.."

"Just go inside. Scott needs you."

I should stay, I know I should but Jackson's inside about to kill someone. I run inside, looking around. Scott runs up to me with the syringe.

"You have to do it."

"Do I have to?"

"Yes. Allison is here."

Realization sets in. I forgot about Matt asking her to a rave and her saying yes.

"You knew, didn't you?"

"I honestly forgot. He asked her the day we got detention."

"Liv!"

"Sorry!" He hands me the syringe. "Argent is on his way here. I gotta make sure they don't ruin the plan."

I grab my head in pain.

"Make Isaac or Lizzie do this."

I give him back the syringe.

"Liv, are you okay?"

"Not really."

I walk through the crowd. I run outside, grabbing my head. I've never felt pain like this. I can feel someone trying to get inside my head but they're not doing it alone. Multiple people are helping them. I can barely keep them out.

I close my eyes and try to focus on my breathing. I open my eyes and realize I didn't do a good enough job. I can only imagine who's inside my mind right now. I slowly turn around to face whoever it is.

"Hello, Olivia."

Ursula's mother, and technically my biological grandmother.

"My name is Muriel."

"I don't give a fuck what your name is."

She slowly nods.

"A war is coming your way and I cannot stop it."

"And you think I need your help?" I ask. "You let it happen this way."

"Resurrecting Ursula was a.. mistake."

"Obviously."

I don't know why she's here or why she thinks I'd actually trust her.

"My coven is torn. Losing a child is pain I hope you never endure."

"You knew Ursula was evil before she died.. and now this war.. will be your fault."

I still don't understand her point in being here. It makes me so unbelievably angry. Her resurrecting Ursula is what caused all of this.

"You're a Blackthorn-"

"I'm a McCall." I snap. "What is your reasoning for being here?"

"Ursula is gathering her army." She looks at her hands. "And I must do what's best for this world and for you.."

"What are you talking about?"

She throws out her arms and I fall to the ground at the impact of her magic. I unwillingly absorb her magic. I look at her and can see the life draining from it. She's giving me her magic on purpose.

"For the fate of our world." She barely makes out. "Ursula cannot.. get the magic inside you."

I grab my chest and I'm back outside the rave. I can feel her magic coursing my veins. I stand up and try to compose myself.

Scott's roar brings me out of my own head. I start running to his location. I open the door to the large container. Wolfsbane fills my nose.

I'm not worried. No matter the amount of wolfsbane I'm subjected to it won't kill me. It might make me weak but it won't kill me. My magic fights against it.

"Liv."

I turn around as Derek walks in. I jump when Allison's mom stabs him in the back.

"Get him out of here!"

I drag Scott's body out of the container. Derek comes out only a few seconds after. He picks Scott's body up as I throw a portal.

Derek runs into the animal clinic. He sets Scott's body on the table for Deaton to get to work. I sit beside Derek on the chairs along the wall.

"I can stay with him."

"It's fine. I've got nothing else to do."

"Got anything on your mind? We'll be here a while."

"Besides my biological mother trying to kill me? Nothing."

"Sounds like fun."

"You have no idea."

"You okay?"

I nod. I tell myself I am but I'm not. I don't really know what will happen with this war. Alls I know is that I don't want people that I love to die. Lizzie told me that she'd be by my side through it all but I don't want anything to happen to her.

"You don't have to talk about it."

"I don't want people that I love to die for me, Derek."

"I don't really think that's your choice."

"I'm gonna live forever.. I'm going to become the full fledged tribrid."

"It scares you."

Being scared isn't something I'm familiar with. I'm never scared. I'm always confident and cool.

"You can be honest with me, Liv."

"I think for once in my life I am.." I say. "My magic has always been a big part of my life. But what if I did give it up?"

He looks at me confused. I sound ridiculous even saying it.

"What if I was just.. human?"

"What are you saying?"

"I don't even know."

I feel like I'm just blabbing at this point.

"I don't want to live a life without my family. And one day.. I'll have to say goodbye to all of them and live in eternity alone."

Tears start streaming down my face. I quickly wipe them because I hate crying in front of people. I hate it. I refuse to.

"Stiles.."

"Everything feels so real and I hate it."

He wraps his arm around my shoulder and brings my into him.

"Things have a way of working themselves out, Liv.." he whispers. "It'll be fine."

I want to believe him but I don't. I don't think it'll be fine. I think somethings going to happen and I won't be able to turn back.

For once in my life I'm scared.