Feelings On Paper

numb

i wish i could tell you i felt the same

i wish i could tell you my heart was a string of waves

that my lungs filled with only the breeze

that i did not suck in the poison for pleasure

i wish i could yell with you

i wish i could tell you that i cared as deeply as you did

that i would run courses for rights that i never wanted anyways

that i would burn the courts down for the people i dont know if i love

my heart will beat and pump the way it has to

for i am breathing and living

and somehow nothing feels as it should

nothing is what you experience

my eyes will dull in darkness and life becomes a sea of grey

my lips will falter into defeat and the words screaming inside remain

my ears will fall screams of justice into a dull hum

with you

the world came as bright, loud, and fighting as it should have

so i wish i could tell you i felt the same

i wish i could tell you that i even felt to begin with