Feelings On Paper

I can let go

After a long time of blaming myself,
experiencing the pain of guilt,
with the idea that I brought nothing but misery to you,
I realize that I am so much better off without you.

You were the one love that hurt the most,
because every tug of war was always won by you,
every compromise was on your favor,
every day was spent trying to please you

If you felt nothing but misery with me despite everything I did for you,
then I can rest and know I wasn't the only one at fault.
(I wasn't the best,
but I wasn't the worst)
I can finally let go,
knowing that every beautiful moment with you,
would never shine through the bad memories.

You made me hate myself for who I was,
for what I loved to do,
and for how I lived,
and for that, I sincerely thank you.

Thank you for making me realize,
I never want to settle ever again.