Always Worth the Risk || Levi x Reader

Chapter 35

Y/N's Pov

There's blood all around me. It rains down from the sky. Thick, hot, heavy droplets that steam once they hit the sopping red soil. It slides down my cheeks, stinging my eyes. I blink through the pain.  There's a wall in the distance, moving towards me. But... that doesn't make sense... walls don't move.

It's getting closer.

I try to take a step back but my feet are sinking into the ground.

I can't move.

I'm trapped.

The walls getting closer. But it's not a wall now. I know what it is. It's titans.

The rumbling.

Again.

I'm up to my knees now in bloodied soil. I reach for my sword but of course nothings there. I search my surroundings. I'm alone.

"Levi!!!" I scream.  "Levi"

A small cry echoes in answer. But it's not Levi.

A boy appears a hundred meters in front of me. A young boy, no more than ten. With bright eyes and brown hair. Eren.

My heart stops.

"Eren!" I cry.

Eren turns. "Y/N?" he's voice is small but carries through the ever nearing thundering. Blood streaks down his face. "What's going on?"

"Eren!" I sob. Suddenly my feet are free. I sprint towards him. My steps are slow, like running through sludge. I reach for him. "Eren!" He reaches for me. Our fingers brush and he crumbles into dust.

I scream as Eren's decapitated head falls to my feet.

I fall back, scrambling away. "Levi!"  I cry out. Where is he? Please. Please. "LEVI!"

"Y/N!"

I whirl around. "Levi!"

He's there. In front of me. He reaches down to take my hand. Relief shudders through me as I take it. But as soon as our skin touches he crumbles into dust at my knees too.

I scream so hard my vocal cords bleed.

My throat is filling with blood. I can't breathe. I can't breathe.

"Mommy!!!!!" voices cry out behind me.

I turn. "No..." I choke out, blood pouring from my lips. I watch as my children are crushed under the rumbling.

I can't breathe.

It's getting closer.

Everyone's dead.

Blood is everywhere.

I can't breathe.

I can't breathe.

I can't breathe.

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I wake up in cold sweat, fighting hard for breath. Levi's beside me. Holding me. He pulls me in, stroking my back as I lean against his chest. "Breathe," he soothes, whispering into my ear. "Breathe. It's not real. It's not real. It's just a dream."

I breathe shaky breaths in and out. Just a dream, it was just a dream.

Even 22 years later the dreams still plague us. The nightmares.