Dear Caspar,
Please don't blame yourself for this,
It was all those nights I cried,
And thats what lead me.. to suicide.
Being in my sisters shadow never helped alot,
And if we went somewhere these days i'd always be forgot,
I was hurting like burning in a flame,
But who but me is there to blame,
Ugly and unwanted - as it became to much,
My hand flew to my heart to clutch,
Please don't blame me for why I lied,
Although it lead me to suicide.
I had always dreamed of love at first sight,
I even if I knew it wasn't right,
My heart was blistered, brusied and all,
It could brake with one last fall,
I was preventing even more pain,
I often had to check if I were sane,
I wish I could have stood with pride,
But I couldn't and it lead me to suicide.
Living with someone like you never helped aswell,
I was kinda in love with you - didn't know if you could tell,
That little touch at the beginning of our videos always drove me mad,
But I knew it should mean nothing which always made me sad,
Or everytime you lifted me up I felt like I could fly,
But I knew it should mean nothing which is why I never touched the sky,
I'm not going to lie I honestly tried,
And heres where it lead me... to suicide
Lots of love,
Joe x
