The Girl In Black (Jungkook FanFic)

The Way Of Love

It was some really tough days last month and things never really seemed to get better. Starting from the part where I met the BTS members, fell in love even more deeply with Jungkook but then had to instantly move on from him, fought with my closest friend, Tira, forced to get married, got myself controversial, and finally, knew the truth that my family was going to leave me alone in this country. If I hadn't been strong enough, I didn't know what I would have been doing. So for now, I just kept on with my life, going to the university and trying to focus on my studies.

Luckily, Tira and I were back again as best friends which means we spent almost the whole time together. At least I was so happy about that part. I told her everything and she gave me all the support that I needed. Having her by my side was like having half of my life back.

After lunch, Adam asked me to meet him to discuss our problem. I agreed and met him outside the university accompanied by Tira. I thought about being honest with him, that I was not ready, and that I probably was still trying to improve myself, or in the other words, trying to move on from Jungkook. The truth was I hadn't truly erased this feeling I had for him yet. All I ever did this whole entire time was only getting rid of everything about him in my life, not in my heart.

Speaking of him, I had spent three nights dreaming about him, or more precisely, us. Last night I dreamt of Jungkook and I hiding from a lot of people who were chasing us. He held me tight in his arms while staring into my eyes, saying that it's okay. Urgh! What kind of dream was that? I woke up with my heart racing and I got goosebumps all over my skin. I really hate it how my body reacts whenever I think of him. I shouldn't recall that dream, though. Come on, Leilah! Focus on your own life!

Tira and I met Adam at a café near our university after that and ordered some drinks.

"I, um... Actually wanna say sorry. About the whole marriage thing. I see that you're quite against it and I'm sorry if I got you into a lot of trouble. I really don't mean to," Adam started.

I looked at Tira, seeing her supporting eye signal and only then talked.

"It's okay. It's not really your fault," I replied.

"So, you really don't want to go on with the marriage?" he asked.

"I'm sorry. The truth is I'm really not ready. I have so many things I want to do and try on my own, and I haven't prepared myself for the challenges in marriage life at all. I never thought of it at times like this. And I also need to improve myself more. I hope you understand."

He just nodded and smiled a bit. "Of course I understand. Maybe we're too young for this, right?"

"Yeah." And we both smiled at each other but looked away in an instant. I looked at Tira and saw her focusing on her phone. She wasn't going to help me this time, I guess.

"Can I ask you some questions?" When I suddenly remembered about it, I asked.

"Sure."

"Sorry but... Why do you want to marry me? Or why did you agree? Because we haven't met at all before this. And I actually didn't know you exist."

He let out a slight chuckle. "Maybe you don't remember, but we have met before," he said.

I scrunched my eyebrows. "Really?"

"Didn't your brother told you? I was your neighbor and used to play at your lawn when I was 7 years old and you were 6."

"Oh my God, seriously? So you liked her since a little kid?" Tira whom I thought wasn't hearing anything suddenly interrupted.

Adam scratched his head awkwardly and laughed. "Kind of."

"Wow, that is legit cute. I always thought that this only happens on TV. You're really lucky, Leilah." She shoved her elbow at me but I was just completely speechless. Maybe even blushed. I quickly chased off all those thoughts in my head and focused on what I wanted to ask him.