I don't know if you saw in my eyes how much I was pleading for you to say yes and join us
I don't think you realized how defeated I was walking back alone, without you
I feel so empty and weak and stupid
I no longer feel I belong here
Right when we walked up to you I knew what you were going to say
But I kept my hopes up
You made excuses, you wanted to do something else
And I gave up, I didn't even say anything to you
I was hoping that looking at you was enough
You looked at me a couple times, giving me a smile that could have said "I'm sorry" but I could never tell what you meant
Why didn't you look back?
Why won't you?
I'm still here
I still exist
If you abandon me now I might as well stop
breathing
I can't focus on anything anymore.
Its like I can't find a reason anymore
