warning this doesn't sound sane or healthy in anyway i just needed to write
—
how can i be patient when you're running away from me?
how can i possibly continue,
knowing i need to walk away without you?
you've brought so much light
you give meaning when it's dark
when i drift away from the cold
you bring me back to warmth
i can't POSSIBLY CONTINUE
feeling the way i do
i hate how much i've been driven to love you
how desperate i am
to want something to happen to myself
that way you feel a fraction of what i do
i don't want to hurt you
i don't want to hurt you
(but i'm starting to hurt myself)
(i'm starting to hurt myself)
how could you EVER understand ?
do i really reach farther than i should ?
why won't you reach out to me?
why won't you speak to me?
why why why why why why
WHY CAN'T I LET GO
HOW DO I LET GO
HOW DO I LET GO
PLEASE LET ME LET GO
—
i've hit some sort of breaking point tonight and i am hurting myself severely for it, mentally speaking.
this "book" might have to end soon because it's hitting the point where it has too many entries.
i don't know when this goodbye will be but we shall see.
i can't anymore so goodnight and see you in another entry
