I've got some thoughts below so enjoy me talking. It's a lot of words but it's not that bad
You don't really want me to go, do you?
Do I want you to come back? No.
After all this damage I think you owe me this
At least
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Staring at the wall will give you a few ideas
But death hasn't been one of them
It's as blank as my mind has been
Before the spiral of you
Before this epiphany
I could feel too much of everything
It used to be like this but it's not that way anymore
There's not even the trace of tears
In the past nights
Because there is nothing
So much of nothing.
It took me awhile to write this because there's so much i could say.
I just remembered 3 posts ago when I was talking y'know ranting I thought about something i just forgot to say it.
I think that person distanced them-self from the people around them to make the pain of them leaving hurt less. But that's not any better that makes it worse? Because up until they leave you have no idea why they're pushing you away like did i do something wrong? And when they leave or announce they're leaving it finally makes sense but up until then it's torture. It's not fair.
I also have no feeling whatsoever and I can't get it back. I can't even like cry or like get excited idk it's weird I'm tryin
+ I added the Watty's tag so vote if you wanna on these entries but you don't have to don't feel pressured it's just fun
