Mixed Love

Love Me? or Not

Kenma's pov

I'm walking to the doorm place with Kuroo.

We step outside to head towards the building but then Kuroo stops. I stop as well for god knows what.

"K-Kenma...truth or dare...." kuroo asks all of a sudden. I start to just walk off then Kuroo says it again. "Kenma! Truth or Dare!...." it was already night time so i shushed him and said Truth.

"Is it true you had feelings for me?" Kuroo says while looking me dead in the eyes.

I turn around and try to walk off again but Kuroo grabs my arm and stops me.
"It's a truth or dare question Kenma you have to answer.."

"N-No I don't I'd rather eat apple pie than do this..." I say trying to pull away from Kuroo...

"Kenma....Do you love me or not?" Kuroo says looking like he's desperate.

He finally let's go of my arm. I sigh then say... "maybe I do maybe I don't.... you'll never know..."

As I walk off towards the dorm place.
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I took a shower and now I'm laying on my bed. I'm still wondering what was that about.

I wish I can tell him straight forward how I feel... but I can't because he might get caught up with me and Tsukishima.
Don't they call him a 'salty french fry'? I laugh at it cause it's funny.

It'll take a while for me to tell Kuroo how I feel but that will never change the fact... that he's with Tsukishima.

I close my eyes to go to sleep then wake up to Kuroo busting through my door. "God fucking damnit Kuroo!" I say while throwing a pillow at him.

"Kenma! I need to know! I'll give you apple pie!" Kuroo says while catching the pillow.

As much as my urge for wanting apple pie is I had to decline. I motion Kuroo out the door then I close it. "He's one hell of a package to deal with".... i say as I lay back in my back cuddling my cat plushie (don't laugh) and falls alseep.
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The next morning for practice we went against Karasuno and we won the 1st and 3rd set.

We could've lost if Kuroo would just stop giving me scary death stares the whole time.

Yaku comes up to me and asks "What's up with you and Kuroo today? Y'alls rythm didn't make any since." Then Lev comes and says "Yeah chibi-chan's right... I hate to say it but y'all were not like the oxygen flowing through us..." after Lev finishes he get's his ankle's kicked by Yaku.

Ugh he used Kuroo's dumb team phrase... as much as me and Lev hate it.... Lev's right.... and I bet the whole team noticed it as well.

I suddenly get chills up my spine because when I turned around Kuroo was right behind me. I hide behind Lev who's confused and just stands there.

"This is a human tree! You cannot see me!" I yell at Kuroo.

"Kenma! Tell me! Stop hiding behind Lev!!" Kuroo says yelling back.

"I hate to break this up but what are y'all talking about?" Lev says in total confusion.

Shut up Lev! I say kicking his ankle. Yaku looks at me like a proud mom.

I see Shoyo and I rush towards him while Kuroo is chasing me from behind.

I rush to Shoyo's little first year group and hide in the middle. "Kenma? What are you doing?" Yamaguchi asks. "Hiding from a rooster headed monster" I reply. Then Shoyo turns around behind him and says "Uhm Kenma... is the rooster headed monster 6'1 and is very scary looking at the moment?...."

"Yeah why?" I say then I finally look up with horror.

"Yeah.... Kenma he's right here he looks like he's gonna kill someone." Shoyo says.

"Holy shit! This dude has one hell of a scary look!" Kageyama says.

"LANGUAGE!!!" Suga yells from far away.

Kuroo grabs my arm while everyone else is distracted and takes me outside. "Kenma do you love me? I need to know..."

"Kuroo, if I said yes what would change? Nothing, your with Tsukishima. And if I said no it's no you can carry on right? See? There's no difference. If I asked you the same question what would you say?"

"I-....I....." Kuroo can't even comprehend what to say cause he's at a lost for words.

"Let's just head towards the dorm." I say while walking off.
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Everytime we leave the sunset looks beautiful. It makes me want to put on headphones and listen to peaceful songs... I love this feeling.

I can't also shake the feeling that I'm being watched.... not by Kuroo because he stopped at the market to get something.... but by someone else.

Kuroo comes back and we keep walking. I walk a little bit faster because I feel super uncomfortable with this feeling. 

We soon head inside the dorm place and we head up to our dorm. I go in my room and face plant on my bed.

Maybe I'm just being paranoid....

□●○Tbc○●□