Chosen (Damiano David & Victoria DeAngelis)

Chapter 16

The next evening they were in the concert hall, waiting for their concert to start. Damiano was on the phone again, which made her worry. She was almost certain that everything he was going through had something to do with those damn conversations on the phone. He always said it was his girlfriend but by now she was absolutely convinced that it was something else. If it was Carla, he wouldn't be so broken and stressed out afterwards. But she couldn't think of anything that sounded even remotely close to anything possible.

The show was about to start...in 10 minutes to be exact. She could already hear the fans scream and chant in front of the stage but he still hadn't returned from his phone call. She wanted to check on him but she didn't want Ethan and Thomas to get suspicious. "God fucking damnit...where the fuck is he?", Thomas was clearly pissed...who could blame him? Their whole show depended on him being on time...I mean...they couldn't go on stage without their singer. "If he doesn't show up, I'm gonna personally beat his fucking ass...", he growled, clenching his fists. Nobody ever suspected that but Thomas had some sort of anger issues...not that he ever really hurt anyone but he got pissed pretty quickly and even though he wasn't physically the strongest, his words could sometimes feel like a punch to the face. "Okay...okay, let's calm down a bit, kiddo...I'm sure he'll be there in a second.", Ethan tried to make him calm down a bit, looking at Victoria as if he was asking her for help but she just shrugged. She already had enough on her mind with Damiano...she really didn't need Thomas and his anger issues right now. "See? There he is already...no need to freak out.", Ethan pointed at Damiano who had just joined them. She glanced at him, looking him up from top to bottom, checking if she could see any obvious warning signs. Obviously, she couldn't check if he had hurt himself again in front of the others but she did notice some smaller things. Once again, he looked like he was holding in every emotion he had in himself. He was fixing his ear piece, staring blankly at the wall while doing so. He looked clearly distressed...and if she thought about it, he looked extremely nervous...anxious even. He was shaking a bit - almost unnoticeable - and his eyes looked like he was about to tear up. She wanted to talk to him in private...check him for wounds, hug him and tell him that whatever it was, it would be okay...but they didn't have the time for that now. They had to go on stage.

Of course, the concert was going great...Damiano was very good at hiding his true feelings and while Victoria pretended like everything was normal, she couldn't help but check on him every once in a while. He really didn't look great...how did nobody else notice that? Was it really only obvious if you knew what was going on behind closed doors? But it was so fucking apparent...the slight tremble in his voice, the way he clutched the microphone as if he just needed something to hold onto...and how teary his big and beautiful eyes were. How was it possible that she was the only one, in a room with about 20.000 people, who noticed that? At least Ethan and Thomas could have seen it...I mean...they were on stage with him. She really wanted to go over and show some sort of support or even comfort but that was impossible. If she wanted to have his trust, she would have to make sure that nobody found out about his secrets.

"You'll come back to me, looking tired. You'll have cuts on your arms." That line from La Paura Del Buio, which was their last song for the night, kept on repeating inside her head. Could it be that he was talking about himself in that song? She kinda felt like he was but maybe she was just interpreting too much into something insignificant. But since she knew how depressed he was and what he was doing to himself, she couldn't help but see signs she had never seen before. And for some reason her instincts kicked in, making her want nothing more than cuddle him and tell him everything would be okay.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hey ;)

I'm feeling pretty motivated again, so I might post another chapter later. I hope you like it and it would be awesome if you could leave a comment :)

What do you think is going on with Damiano? Who is the person he's talking to on the phone? And is that really the reason for his problems? Let me know what you think.

Thanks for reading.

- Thalia