Ateez Little Space

4-Seongjoong : Not easy

Little : Seonghwa

Caregiver : Hongjoong 

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Seonghwa's POV : 

Being the eldest in a chaotic group like ours isn't easy especially when the leader isn't here , hongjoong's glare is usually enough to quieten any fight , shouting or anything else , but me , i am a soft hyung compared to hongjoong , i can't even raise my voice at anyone of my doesangs. 

Hongjoong has been in his studio preparing new songs with Eden for more than a week which left me the responsible one in the dorm ,and when i say i am losing my mind , i wouldn't be lying , except yeosang and jongho sometimes i feel like i am talking with deaf people , even the walls would have learnt from how many time i keep repeating that everyone must  clean his room , everyone must respect his turn on cooking , doing the dishes , the laundry ... instead of playing games all day long and causing a chaos and a mess in every corner of the house ! 

" wooyoung , san how many times should i tell you that -" i started but san cut me off 

" yes yes hyung , we were on our way , we will do it when - OUH I ALMOST GOT KILLED " 

i sighed leaving to the kitchen to see a mess , the dishes of last night weren't washed and it was mingi's turn , and that was when i saw him carrying his bag and heading to the door 

"where are you going song mingi ? " i asked him walking to where he was putting his shoes on 

" to the studio , hongjoong hyung asked for some things " he said not even looking at me 

" you should have told me at least " i said walking back to the kitchen and started to do the plates and glasses 

' hongjoong , i really need him now , i can't keep going like that , i know that they are just excited about this short break and they are trying to rest and enjoy their time before the comeback and the promotions  but that doesn't mean to be THIS careless ' 

i took my phone out of my pocket and clicked hongjoong contact and kept looking at it for good five minutes , he always tells me to call him if something bad happens or if things are out of my hands . because of this heavy tiring responsibility i couldn't be little at all , not even a minute , i really wants him to be here and comfort me and things would go back to their first state , i sighed and locked my phone again before putting it back in my pocket and going back to washing the dishes 

' i can't be selfish , he is working so hard even harder than me , he needs my help to keep things balanced , don't be a heavier burden seonghwa , you can tolerate that for few days ' 

" seonghwa hyung !!" jongho entered the kitchen breathless

" what is it now?" i said looking at the  water running 

" yunho ! he fell from the stairs and and he isn't waking up " he said and i let go of the glass in my hand and it felt on the floor breaking into pieces causing me a cut in my leg but i really didn't care now , i ran to the stairs where yunho was laying on the floor with his eyes closed and the other members surrounding him , i felt my heart stop beating at the sight and i sat next to him bringing his head to my thigh 

" yunho , yunho " i slapped his face lately and when it didn't work my hands started shaking 

" what the heck happened here ? how did he fall ?" i asked feeling my throat going dry 

" we were fighting over the remote and he took it and started running down the stairs and he fell " jongho explained and i gulped 

his head wasn't bleeding so i bent down a bit to check his breathing and my eyes widened when i didn't feel it