Ateez Little Space

27-YunGi : Still a baby

little : yunho 

caregiver : mingi 

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Yunho's POV :

" you can take a break " as soon as the choreographer announced that , i laid flat on my back on the floor trying to catch my breath , preparing for an online concert isn't that easy , it's true we have performed those songs hundreds of times but we always try to make it perfect , it has to be perfect . 

i kept looking at the ceiling till i saw my hyung's face looking down at me 

" you okay there ? " seonghwa hyung asked me running his hand through my sweaty hair , i closed my eyes and hummed enjoying the touch 

" okay get up now huge baby " the leader said and i blinked the few tears away ; huge , i can't be someone small , i can't be a baby , i can't 

i sat up and looked at myself in the mirror , i was tall , my shoulders are so broad and - i was cut off my thoughts when i felt someone wrap his arms around my shoulders 

" yah yunho what are you doing ? " i looked up to see mingi's reflection in the mirror , he was smiling at me and i couldn't handle it , he was my caregiver but i never felt completely little , i was never carried around , i can't be the little spoon , i am taller than all my members , how can i be their little ? 

" yunho hyung ? " he called my name again , and i forced a smile 

" nothing mingi-ah " 

he kept looking into my eyes as a way to tell me that he knew i am lying but he stood up anyways holding his hand out for me 

" the food is here " he said briefly and guided me to the other room where the others were already shoving the food on their mouths 

" take a seat " wooyoung said pointing to the empty chair on his left , i walked there and sat down looking at nothing 

bad thoughts and fears are the worst way to slip to your little space believe me , i won't be happy nor playful like always , i will just be negative even in my comfort space 

" hyung , you alright ? " wooyoung asked and when i looked at him , he put down the pizza and cupped my right cheek in his hand gently 

" why are you crying hyung ? " he asked softly wiping my tears , but soon new ones replaced them 

" yunho ? " i heard the leader's voice and i whimpered , maybe a little too loud which made the others look at me and that was the last straw to be pulled before i broke down sobbing loudly , my head between my crossed arms on the table 

" baby " i heard that deep voice coming from behind me but i couldn't face him 

" baby boy " the young rapper turned me around and i hide my face with my hands 

" hey hey , take deep breaths angel , it's okay " he said stroking my hair gently " that's my good baby " 

" i no baby " i said quietly trying to steady my breathing

" what was that yunho ? "he asked a bit mad and that made a loud sob come out of me 

" i think you should talk to him privately " wooyoung said rubbing my back 

" i think it's better . let's go baby " i looked up to mingi who was smiling which made me smile but soon my smile dropped when i saw his holding his hand out for me , is it too much to ask to be carried ? 

i started crying again refusing to get up which confused the other members , honestly we never talked about that , and i never asked anyone to carry me or put me on their laps but ... 

" honey look at hyung please " seonghwa hyung said crouching down next to me , the eldest vocalist is always the person i can lean on when i am sad , tired , upset , he was a special someone for me 

" good boy" he praised when i did " can you tell hyungie what's the matter so we can fix it little one ? " he asked caressing my knees with his thumbs , i kept looking at his eyes before directing my gaze to my caregiver's hand , he immediately followed my gaze before looking back at me confused at first and then smiled before standing up and kissing my hair line

" it's okay " he whispered pulling mingi with him out of the room , i sat there looking at the floor too afraid to meet anyone's eyes , wooyoung pulled my tired body to him , so my head was laying on his chest 

" i don't know what it is but it's gonna be fine baby " he said running his hand up and down my side which made me relax and a bit sleepy 

but soon , i tensed up when seonghwa and mingi came back , but this time my caregiver was smiling 

" hongjoong -ah , let him rest while we continue practicing , look how sleepy he is " seonghwa hyung said before i saw the rapper nodding and he left to maybe tell the choreographer 

" did you finish eating ? " mingi asked me patting my thigh and i shook my head " come on then , you need to eat before taking a nap sweetie " 

i sat up correctly , and started eating slowly feeling mingi's gaze on me all this time 

after i finished , i was in my chair waiting for the others to finish cleaning , once yeosang and san pulled the table to the side of the room , i was going to stand up but soon fell back on the chair because of my caregiver who stood between my legs 

" hey baby " he said 

" hai " i replied quietly looking at me feet feeling small in his presence

my eyes went wide when i felt him put his hands under my arms and lift me up of my chair before putting me on his hip with an arm around my waist and the other one under my bum 

" dada ... " i whispered looking at his eyes with tears on mine " dada  "i started crying wrapping arms around his neck and burying my head in his shoulder 

" there little one , i am sorry baby " he said kissing the spot behind my ear " daddy should have known what you wanted sweetheart , i really didn't mean to upset you or make you feel otherwise  , you are always gonna be my small baby " he comforted me while walking around the room and like that i went to dreamland with a wide smile on my face