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~Thank you~

thank you for ruining me
for making me who i am today
constant panic attacks
depression
fear of meeting people
of going out
of voicing my fears
of telling my opinion
thank you for giving me trust issues
reasons to be afraid of people
of them leaving me
of them dissappointing me
of them hurting me
thank you for making me sad
for all those nights i cried
all those days feeling bad
for something that i didnt even do
i didnt even say
i hadnt even thought
thank you for making me a mess
someone not worth the wait
someone that just wants to leave
thank you for your awful words
for your lack of comfort
for your lack of understanding
when i was here
suffering
drowning
crying
and you were there
just smiling
and laughing
so thank you again
for making me my worst self