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~im sick~

im sick
of faking im fine
im sick
of lying all the time
arent you supposed to see through my smiles?
know me best than I
am i supposed to lie
keep on faking
im sick
of wanting to cry all the time
of that need to die
cant stop thinking about it
is it too much to ask?
"are you okay?"
yeah im fine
thats what i have to say
to hide the lie
im not okay
im sick
of this feeling
of this numbness
of this sadness
please help me
i can barely stand it