Broken texts

~Falling in love~

Im sorry for not upadting for a while, I have been going through some rough times
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the fear of falling in love
when you know its doesnt go both ways
when you know he has someone else
i love him so damn much
but now he only looks at her
im sinking in the ocean
going in deep in the sea
i cant even breathe anymore
as im once again trying to reach the surface
please someone just help me
i need him back
the way he could hug me and
suddenly there was no such thing as a panic attack
i miss him so damn much
but i hope hes happy with her
as he deserves the best of this world
and far more than that
i just wished i could give it to him
that i wasnt so tainted and broken
that i could make him happy
but i could only make him suffer
please god give him happiness
make him live free and smiling
as his smile is the most beautiful thing
and his eyes god his eyes
the way they made me realize how much i love him
i cant imagine how to live without him
but ill slowly learn
because even though i just look at him
he only has eyes for her