Thoughts

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I don't want to fall any deeper
anymore
I use my craziness to find a way out
Out of my own cases
Even my mind is lost
I can use it as a new begin
A new beginning
When I'm lost in the dark
Can't i make it my own
Just find some light
I always changed the rules
So it's perfect now
Even i don't know how to start
I can begin
No excuses
I avoided myself
My fate
I let it disappear
I wanted it to fade
My fears
Can we be friends?
I was afraid of my own power
I was afraid of losing myself
That's why i lost myself
I wanted to be so much more
I never noticed
That i already am
I watched how the time passed
I never tried to go along
I held on too long
I break out
I'm dangerous for myself
I know my mask will break
that's what i want
But I'm still afraid
i defeat myself
My tears
My pain
Just expressions for all my time
All my mistakes