Thoughts

the rain in my mind

I tried to create something beautiful
But the only thing i love
Is the rain in my thoughts
I protect myself from the crowd of people
That try to change my mind
Whenever
Wherever
There will always be a bridge that lead into my head
The state of my mind
I'm mature enough
To endure the world
I thought my mind would only be my place
But u found a way in it
Now u r into it
But please leave me
I wanna stay alone
I beg for only one place
I can have for my own
There is only one thing that means the most to me
It's maybe not u
But I'm insecure
I don't know if it's hate
Need
Or even love
But i know I'm lost
I made u fall for me
'Cause i lived my way
I became your reality
But it's nothing that means the most to me
'Cause i fell before u were close to me
The clouds in my head
Hide a way to escape
There would never have been a way
To see my true face
Maybe in the past
But the past has left scars
I'm afraid to set down my mask
'Cause I'm lost in the dark
Even you could see me now
The dark would hide the reason why I'm like this
Why I thought that no one needed to see my true face
'Cause i hated the person i was
Even you whispered i would be the only real star

Clouds are there now
To hide my tears
Before i burst out
They made me suffer
Everytime a little more
But they promised
To let me live in my thoughts
It was my way to build my own world
That's where I am now
I know you are trying to find me
To get me out
But you have to disappear firstly
To begin a journey
Before you can find me