Thoughts

last time

Every single night
I fall back into this trance
Staring at my screen
With tears
I tried to distract myself
From myself
But it didn't went well
This hate
This pain
All together
All is in my head
All stuck in my mind
I am thinking too much
Hating myself
I don't like who I am
I can't change
Every single night
My thoughts turn around this world
Maybe I wanna leave
Maybe I don't
A decision I can never make
It wouldn't matter if I leave
I am just a little piece of a big puzzle that can be replaced
I don't worth it
That's what I think
That's all I am
Nothing
A void
In my head
A buried voice that tries to scream
But it shall shut up
Forever
Just one more night
When I lose my last tears
I'll make the voice stop
For now and ever
Let me be who I am
This last night
I can't change in this world
So I try to be me
The last night
The last time
When I am here
Trying to be me
Then it's over
Forever