Belonging to the Kings- Book I

The Lies. The Truth. (7.15)

||Renessme||

Numb... I couldn't feel a thing at this very moment of my life. The earlier revelations, and now this close proximity to the five only made things worse for me. It was as if I lose the ability to think rationally and logically with them around. My mind turns into mush, they're constantly breathing down my throat, which is why I had to distance myself, most importantly I seem answers from them.

Standing in the kitchen, I walk over towards the French windows, that overlook the lush green forest before us, this distance helped after my little outburst with the boys. The memories and fuzzy feeling from that lip locking session with Jason still had the ability to make my legs go weak. Then like always, there were flashes of Jason betrayal surface, now the cocky announcements of their colourful night yesterday didn't help my case, I was growing more intolerant towards their deceiving and games.

I was brought out of my stupor when Titus from behind me, in a calm voice tried to remind me, he wore a concerned expression, "Esme, you need to stop running anyway from reality. This bond we share is not something you can play with, it's eternal."

Eternal?
Was it perhaps my immaturity?
Could I turning a blind eye?
Might be their inability to make me see the truth?

No!
It was all them.
Last night proved it.

Acid brewing deep in the pit of my stomach, I was quick to point towards Jason, my confidant's and best friends unfaithfulness towards me, his supposed soulmate. There was an uncanny sharpness to my tone, "Like your brother didn't when he was exchanging saliva with other women? Or when he was pleasuring her?"

I try to avoid Jason's figure, but from my peripheral view I could make out how rigid he became. The other four were growing frustrated, this was my certainly go to argument for every time I thought I was getting in too deep with them, my vulnerabilities shone and I passed the buck to him.

Was I being fair?
Don't let him off this easy.

Titus grew agitated trying to get across to his point, "That was him being dumb, he's learned his lesson. You've punished him for the same, haven't you?"

I did.
But it still hurts.

I could feel my migraine growing again, massaging my aching temples, I asked in a low voice, not out of curiosity but necessity of my sanity, "Yesterday, What happened?"

"We did what we had to." Ceaser snickered, almost seemed prideful of that, though that crushed me. It was exactly how one would feel if they're stabbed, my insides ran cold.

Reluctantly I whim my head towards their direction, trying my best to show how I wasn't dreading their response, "Did you do it? With her?"

Don't show your vulnerabilities
Be strong.

Unabashed, Attrius shoots a wink my way, that only confused me. It was when I heard the next few words out of his mouth, "We had our fun with her." that did it for me, I was done for. Nothing would ever be the same, my throat chocked, eyes turn misty.

"Of course!" I jab, channelling my anger, I fist my hands on either side of my body, probing them further, "What else did you do last night?"