Loathing Logan

Everything Is Crumbling

Logan

Everything began to go down to shit. I was so pissed off. I was hurt, and I felt my world was crumbling down to pieces.

It's been three days, three long days after. Though, they feel longer.

How could she do this to me? I love her, I love her so much. I trusted her. But all she did was play with my emotions, she lied to my face and played me so bad. She played with my heart.

How could I've not seen the signs? I was so gullible.

Worst of all, she hadn't come to school for those past three days. All her friends were scattered. Troy was eating alone with Lexie, and Dylan was hanging out with other guys from our school football team.

I was in such a bad mood that the coach had warned me a few times at practice for hurting some of the guys. I didn't give a shit. I needed to get my anger out somehow.

Besides, this is fucking football, guys should know it's a rough game. I toughed it out in the field to take some of the edges off my anger, even if coach thought so wrong.

I couldn't bear to eat and sit during lunch for too long. Classes were torture knowing she wasn't here, and things had ended between her and me. I hated everything and everyone right now.

Maybe I should have listened to Amber. Shit was never going to work between Sophie and me. She was right. It was pathetic of me to wish so high.

I headed home after practice and threw my stuff on the floor, slamming my helmet on the floor.

Everything in my room was a big mess. I threw shit around and broke anything on sight the day we broke up, and it stayed that way ever since.

All- except the things she'd given me. I couldn't bear to do it. No matter how much I was mad at her right now, I couldn't dare to break the things she had given me.

"Logan? Wh- what is going on?" Ashley's voice startled me. My eyes were blurred by all the tears I had shed. 

"Ash? Nothing. Everything is ok sweety. Where's mom? Did you eat something already?" I tried to hide my anger from her. I wiped my face quickly, blinking repeatedly to clear my eyes from the tears. I didn't want Ash worrying. She was still hurting from what dad did back in Chicago.

"No. Meghan and Aunt Ruth are out today. They're meeting mom for an event at the Patterson's vineyard. I guess mom is catering for them again. Logan?" She asked making my facial expression soften a bit.

"Are you and Sophie mad at each other?" She asked making my heartache worsen.

"Why do you ask bugger?" I said softly. I hadn't mentioned to her or mom about our breakup. Though, I knew eventually it would come out.

"You're crying like a little girl. Plus, she hasn't come over all week. AND, I miss her and Charlie, she usually brings him over so we can play together. Did you piss her off?" She tilted her head to one side, putting her right hand over her hip. The gesture made my heartache. It was a gesture Sophie did a lot, each time she meant business with me. It was a queue to not mess with her. She'd stand with her hand on her hip, face trying don't to stay serious, and head tilted to a side. Damn it! I miss her so much, despite her betrayal.

I smiled, trying to hide my sadness.

"I may have made her mad Kiddo, but she hurt me too. And, honestly, I don't know if we can fix it. Or, if we'll ever have a chance to fix it. Things got a little complicated between us, Ash." I said sitting on my bed, placing my hands on my knees.

"Well, easy. Tell her you're sorry. Duh!" She said making me chuckle.

"If only shit was that easy Ash. If only," She sat next to me, placing her hands around my waist.