Loathing Logan

Change Can Be Good, But Painful

Sophie

It's been almost seven years since I left Lakeview. I never thought I'd go back. But terrible news pulled me back to that old town.

A few months after Logan had found me in Los Angeles, four years ago, I received a phone call from dad. Mom had gotten sick again. But this time, they didn't catch it in time. She hid it from everyone, including dad. No one, not even I was ready for what was to come.

Mom died just a year after I went to see her. She was so happy to finally spend more than a few days' worths of time with Nathan. All we did was talk about him when we are on the phone. She simply adores him. But it was so hard to see her in pain. The cancer had come back to her bones that time, I could still hear her crying from the pain, saying her body felt as if it was on fire. I don't understand how life could be so cruel.

She was my best friend, my biggest support, and my shoulder to cry on. She finally passed away a few days before mother's day. She knew it was her time, she died peacefully saying there was no more pain.

She begged me to stay positive. To accomplish my dreams and never give up in life. She wanted me to make up with Logan, though I knew that would never happen. It was long over between us, and it will never happen again. He's in the past.

He will always hold a special place in my heart for every good memory he left. For being my first true love and the man I thought I'd be together forever. But reality pulled us apart. He belonged with someone else, and that someone is not me.

We wanted a small ceremony for mom because we were too torn to give out the news, but the word spread out rapidly on its own, just hours after her passing.

Almost the whole town went to pay their respect to mom. I was shaken up to see everyone there- including Logan and his family.

It was hard seeing him there. Especially since he kept his distance from me. He kept his word of staying away from me for good. I longed for a hug from him, to feel his warm embrace and feel protected in his arms.

When I finally came back to L.A. I decided I had enough. Mom was right, I was holding myself back from living a successful life because of my ego.

I hadn't used any of the money mom and dad had placed in my old account since a year after I left.

They had sent money for tuition, classes, books, living expenses, and more. I rarely had close to eight hundred thousand dollars.

I transferred that money to a savings account for the future. Nathan and I would surely need it. I got to work overtime.

I took classes when I could, worked my regular shift, filled in when needed, and still took time to spend with Nate.
I am graduating from USC with a creative writing diploma and photography.

I love what I do. I just started writing a book and already got a ton of offers from online platforms to add my book with nonexclusive contracts.

Lexie found out about my book and got me an awesome deal with a publishing company she started working with soon after she graduated from Stanford.

I was bound to keep my promise to mom. I'd go on with my life and make the best out of it, for me, and Nate.

"So, what do you want to do today? I have the day off. We can spend the day watching movies, go to the beach, to the aquarium. What do you think?" I asked Nate as I sat next to him. He was engulfed playing video games on his new console.

"I don't know. What do you want? I really don't mind. But, can you make some lasagna today? I'm craving lasagna tonight.

I smiled, nodding my head. I grabbed his face and kissed his cheek. "Anything for my baby." I got off the couch and made my way towards my kitchen.