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Paige Maree's
I tried to match our teacher's pace as I took down notes for our today's lecture. Nasa desk ko ang mga pinamiling highlighters at pens.
Taking down notes makes it easier for me to be able to pay full attention to the discussion. Maiksi kasi ang attention span ko at nakakatulong ito para makapagfocus ako sa sinasabi ng teacher.
"Get one and pass," our Science teacher said. Ipinasa ang answer sheet for our Science experiment. It will be done by pair para hindi aksaya sa materials.
Nilingon ko si Red. We never talked about what happened that day. We never uttered a word regarding that incident. His photographs were all that was left. We don't usually talk too kaya hindi na rin nabuksan ang topic na 'yon. Buo naman ang tiwala ko sa kanya na hindi niya sasabihin 'yon sa iba.
Hinilig ko ang aking katawan sa upuan ni Red upang masilip kung ano ang laman ng papel. When he noticed, binigay niya sa akin ang papel para hindi na ako mahiraman.
I read the instructions at kaagad kumunot ang noo nang mapansing kahit isa ay wala akong gano'ng gamit.
"May materials ka?" I asked Red. Bahagyang nanlaki ang mga mata niya. He must've been startled that after several weeks, I was able to talk to him directly.
"Meron ako n'yan lahat. Pero baka gusto mo ring magdala," he answered.
"Wala akong kahit isa, eh. Okay lang ba sa'yo na ikaw magdadala sa lahat ng materials?" I asked him. Baka masyado na akong pabigat sa paningin niya pero tumango naman siya sa akin.
"Sama ka, Paige?" Kylee asked me. Recess na pala. Umiling ako sa kanya.
"Busog pa ako, eh." I answered her. Sabay na sila ni Alissa na bumaba para pumunta sa canteen.
I am actually hungry pero kaya ko pa naman. I think I gained weight kaya pinipigilan kong kumain ngayon. I don't want to weigh the same weight as before.
Pinagpatuloy ko ang pagsusulat ng notes sa sulok. Lahat ng mga kaklase ko ay mayroong kanya-kanyang pinagkakaabalahan. The boys were jumping. Tinitignan nila kung sino ang mayroong pinakamataas na talon or whoever could reach the ceiling. Ilang beses na silang pinapagalitan dahil naririnig o nararamdaman daw sa baba yung mga pinagagawa nila. But I guess they never listen.
On the corners of my notes, I wrote words of affirmations to always remind me to keep moving forward kahit nakakapagod na. Madalas akong nawawalan ng gana kapag nagre-review o nag-aaral and these words really helped me a lot. I've been doing this since grade 7.
Tumunog ang tiyan ko pero ipinagsawalang bahala ko ito. Hindi naman siguro ako mamamatay dahil rito. Kumain naman ako ng breakfast kanina and I will eat naman during lunch time.
