Law of Attraction

Film 10

Paige Maree's

"Because I do."

His eyes met mine, but this time... it was more intense that I can feel it through my veins. It made my legs weak and I tried not to be out of balance.

He was like looking through my soul... he was looking for any transparency of emotions. Hindi ba kita sa mukha ko na totoo ang sinasabi ko? Hindi ko ba naipapakita sa mga galaw ko na gusto ko siya?

If so, I don't think I can change who I am. I try to show my emotions through my actions. I was never good at words. It was hard for me to look for the right words to say that's why I prefer not running around the bush.

His eyebrows met. He was supposed to say something when I decided to cut him off.

"But I'm not into relationships yet. Commitments aren't for me," I told him.

Gusto kong bawiin ang sinabi ko lalo na nung nakita ko ang sakit na dumaan sa mukha niya bago niya ito naitago sa pamamagitan ng pag ngiti.

Gumalaw ang adam's apple niya na para bang pilit niyang inaalis ang nakabara sa lalamunan niya. He nodded at me.

"I know, I understand. We're still too young for that," he said pagkatapos ay ginulo niya ang buhok ko. He stared at me and gave me a smile as if he was assuring me that he was alright.

I don't know if what I did was rejection but I clearly told him I like him naman?

"Paige," I heard someone say. Lumingon ako sa likod ko at nakita ang pinsan kong lalaki.

"Kuya," I said in surprise. Kuya Jiyo was walking towards us. His polo was open and it reveals his inner shirt. Baka masita siya ng guidance mamaya 'pag nakita siya.

Pinasadahan niya ng tingin si Red bago niya ito tinanguan. Mukhang magkakilala na ata sila dati pa.

"I heard what happened. Alam na ba ni Lola?" he asked. Umiling ako. If Lala knew, she would come here with no hesitation.

"She doesn't know and I hope she won't know. Baka tumaas pa yung blood pressure niya and I'm already feeling fine." I answered. Mabuti naman at payag siya sa sinabi ko. 

We parted ways when he entered the CR.

Nagsimula na kami ni Red maglakad papunta sa canteen. We did not take the chance to talk about what we were talking about before Kuya Jiyo came.

"What do you want to eat?" he asked when we entered the canteen.

Nauna na akong umupo. He was waiting for my answer kaya hindi pa siya umuupo.

"Busog pa ako—" hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko sana dahil tinaas na niya ang isa niyang kilay.

"Siopao," I said.

"Wala kang iinumin?"

I sighed.

"Water," sagot ko sa kanya.

Kinapa ko ang wallet ko sa aking bulsa. Mabuti naman at dala ko ito. Kaya lang ay kukuha na ako ng pera pero biglang umalis na si Red para bumili.

"Ako na," he said.

I immediately grabbed him by hand. I gave him an intense glare.

I opened his hand and put my money there because my pride says no. He sighed and went back to walking. Alam niyang wala na siyang magagawa kaya hindi na siya sumubok pa na sabihing libre na niya. 

Growing up, I don't like receiving things. I feel like it's an inconvenience. I feel like I'm making people inconvenient whenever they do that. Mas gugustuhin kong ako nag nagbibigay, if I have something to give.